The Good Place

You were like some dark apparition in the night of the dark world. The dark world was where I roamed, but where no traces of me could ever be found in the land of the light.

Lo let wander! I have searched for her in places unknown but she left me like a sullen creature in the cruel dark night and as for woes, my remorse and my regrets filled my curiosity as I became a creature of the night.

Stalking and preying amongst the city like a shadow of all men and women of this good place.

It scared me to think of such an evil place as the good place, but there I was. Crawling among the shadows of the midnight hour.

Like some hopeless sailor bound at sea; I became night’s pervert. Stalking people of that good place.

I wonder, what makes a man such a man.

But of the night???

Never to return no more….

The Midnight Friend

He looked over my shoulder at my poetry….

I was soon to be married.

He said, “Can you be anymore romantic?”

There was nothing more romantic than the way his eyes sparkled in the moonlit night.

But he was only my friend. I loved him dearly and so did he; I.

“My dear,” I said. “I kiss you every time you look into my eyes.”

It took a lot for me to tell him that only because he brung back memories of my childhood and of the past so often….

Tempted to kiss him, I walked silently away as he watched close by.

Besides, I couldn’t have that…. the relationship; the commitment or the energy for passion.

Yet there we were in the same boat; the same darkness.

Both vagabonds in the night.

Kissing You

I could just keep kissing you by the way your body holds mine….

just by looking

at

You.

The Rhythm

It is like the world knew we would rule it.

We both knew that we had the world to ourselves between our fingers.

Before we separated,

Time took us apart,

But what if the one you loved came back from the past?

It was hauntingly clear that you would be in my daydreams for all my life.

My lifestyle becomes yours in my heart, in my head and in my lonely room

In my empty bed I look up at the ceiling and of course I look at the cracks and creases

And

I

See

You….

You are in my body, my mind, my heart, and my soul.

You take the breath of my hair in and your body temperature lies hot in the nighttime while your skin

Sweats

Against

Mine.

It is a rhythmic beating that my heart inhales when I go near you as we soar into the sky and into the sun.

I love you my angel.

I love

I love you

Angel-Boy

If each angel had an instrument;

You’d be like a guitarist

You always seem to know the notes written on old pages before we were born.

You knew I loved you

And I knew you had loved me

Too much….

But when is too much ever enough?

You are like a guitarist.

You strum at the very best of my heart and I love you ….. so

You were my sweetheart since I was young,

And we were destined to meet by fate.

And fate has it in store for us that you will be loving me forever

And if simple forevers aren’t long enough, remember me and cherish me for forevers aren’t long enough to withstand the love in my heart

So fly back and be with me;

My angel….

Soar high.

Christmas

O how I love you….

You are the sweetness of an eclair during Christmas….

The frostbite that nips on my nose

Like paper butterflies

In June

That fly in the wind

O how I long to feel the sand beneath my toes as the shoreline tide sweeps in….

The sun on my face.

You are my Summer in Winter

Fly safely soldier;

Return home to me.

Come back to love me

O though I know;

This was never meant to last.

Merry Christmas my love

I love you….

Enough

We were just kids building castles in the sky,

But o honey, it’s only a paper moon.

And you are still my fallen star

You shine down on me and wrap me up in stardust

And that is enough….

You

When I saw you,

I never intended on falling in love with you and the bonuses of being with you are that you are blessed with many good concepts.

You look cute in your glasses,

Your hair’s tidied up cute,

You have broad, masculine shoulders that fit your uniform

And to top it off, you have a cute face and a nice tint to your light skin

And…. you’d even look hot if your name was a dorky one.

And this is how all girls think

But maybe I’m wrong….

Maybe it isn’t,

But without your existence,

I wouldn’t have imagined the capacity of this: just being in love with you

And this is because your presence makes me warm and not alone in the dark no matter how very cold you are to the world

And your touch makes me shake in pure happiness.

But maybe, then again,

I’m right.

Blood and Fire

You demanded fire;

All the while I demanded blood;

And no mere mortal could bring me a man or woman to their knees

But

You.

I am not a mere queen.

I am a goddess.

Return To Me

We were just kids building castles out of clouds and sand.

But the wind and the waves took you overseas and it told me that you may never be back.

You promised your heart to me and I gave you mine back.

The world went round and I soon had forgotten all about you.

They say it takes 2,000 years for the earth to twirl round once.

So far, the seconds turned to minutes,

The minutes turned into hours,

And the hours turned into days, weeks, months until they turned into years.

I have waited until I turned into fragments of dust and genuinely,

You damned my soul

Because you couldn’t return….

I can’t love; can’t hate in this body; this lifestyle;

So I write and I wait for the next time you will return to me.

Lifestyles

I was in my own magical world.

Where for once I was the princess;

and you were my prince who had swept me off my feet.

But you see, that was never a possibility for of course I knew that I would never really see you again.

I was never really involved in your life.

And in this lifestyle,

I believed it would be you.

Paper Birds

You were cruel.

I was just some girl building castles in the sky and chasing paper birds, believing that they were mine when they were actually just for her….

Jealous

O love they are just paper clouds of broken dreams and stars are just fragments of stories waiting to be retold to the world as they shine underneath the moonlit night in the dark of the sky.

Baby, the moon tells me everything will be alright and the stars are filled with our fate because we belong to each other.

We belong together and baby, they’re just jealous.

Betrayed By The Sun

Betrayed by the sun,

I couldn’t seem to find time for you.
as ultraviolet red seeps through your hair….
I could only find you at midnight in the darkest hours and
as i walk through the valley of evil,
there you are amongst the fires of hell…
making it seem natural as your flames lick my body.
so come into my body and love me tender….
if not hold me close so we can burn amongst the flames
into
ashes…..

Fortune Had It

My cards said that throughout all our troubles, our time together was fine.

My cards were telling me that after all our doubts we’ve made it.

We made it baby,

And we were just on our way to be together forever no matter how many troubles are crossed between our bundaries….
Together as star-crossedlovers, love me darling for I adore you….

Godspeed

Sadly, you left me before I could tell you about just how much I love you.

It breaks my heart that you would leave.

Josh,

The best thing to do now is reminisce on about you 

I love you darling 

Godspeed.

You’re my hero.
come back to me

Tell Me

You look at me as though askingly if you matter to me or not

Sometimes you look at me as though I’m the most beautiful woman in the world and that I save you from the darkness.

You kiss me as though you need me

You fuck me as though you want me.

Love me darling.

Love me and I will give you the price of the stars 

I would climb mountains for you.

Tell me you love me darling.

Do tell me.

Tell me you’ll never leave me.

Glance

There’s nothing like the crisp wind in your hair

Or the way your eyes subtly glance at mine the way they used to.

The stars twinkle in the night sky only for you.

I love your softness.

That is,

The softness of your soul

The warmth of your smile

Your subtle glances behind my back that remind me that I am never really alone.

Because deep down inside,

I 

Am

Glancing 

Back at you

The Longing For Sweet Nothings

I long to love you….
I wish I could hold you in my arms in the hush of night with your soft, warm lips….
Kiss me roughly darling before you go.
But we will cross paths again someday I know that and I will be the one to love you….for all eternity….I long to touch you….
I do mean it with the bottom of my heart and what’s worse than that?
Knowing that I cannot. I cannot purge the feeling away.
I doubt that whenever I feel the longing to touch you that if I do we may never pass this way again.

I long to make love to you….
I long to hear my name escape your lips….
I long to hear the tender wisp of breaths escaping your moaning mouth….
I long to kiss your lips….
to feel your tongue over and under mine….
to kiss you wildly;
like a starving animal
as you pull my body closer
to
yours….

A Broken Heart

I am lost without you
I am but just becoming a mere memory
and a heart that waits for you to feel the same way I feel about you too.
I think of you in a castle in the clouds and I wonder if we could just lie out in the blue sky again and rebuild the clouds before our walls become solid and secret gardens form within the interwoven locks of our hearts.
I look at the stars and see how far away they are from the moon.
You are the moon and all the stars long to be close to you just as I do.
we are just imagining our future in castles of clouds and stars that can never touch the moon.
we are just broken hearts
waiting for someone to fix us….
I want you and for some reason, I know you….
In desperate hope, I’d just only hope that you’d want me too….
Come home safely soldier….

A Mix of Genders

I could be your lesbian 

Since you’re my gaylord 

But you see, I can’t change you 

And I can’t ever be just that

A lesbian 

Because I’m too in love with myself

Since you couldn’t love me back

Poisoned Dreams

You’re the poison

That ensnares my senses,

That embodies my soul

And stuns my heart

Making my mind swirl into a cloud of my dreams that make no sense,

But then I see you

And you’re thee only thing that seems to make a meaning.

Substitution

There is no substitute 

For the wind that blows in your hair,

For the water that embodies your body

And

It’s 

Not

Fair 

Because it

Is not 

I

The Siren

Your voice

Is the only sound

I’ll ever

want

to

hear.

Persephone and Hades

As Persephone got up from her slumber with the devil, the devil asked….”Darling would you like to go back up again?”

Persephone eyed him lustfully and curiously and said….

“No. Because hell is not a heaven without you.”

The Silent Killer

You were once my world;
once my light at the end of all dark tunnels,
you were the moonlit night of starry skies….
I enjoyed your laughter
I enjoyed your smile….
It was in the small hours of night that I had held you
only to be killed within a short while.

I was unable to touch you

and I was so in love that I did no longer know how to love you then

And that was the end of that 

Unrequited Love

Dear Love,
I will love you like the wisp of the wind that floats across the salty ocean breeze. I will because on these subtle days, someday I know I will get to fix you when your world is falling down. I will love you like the moon and the sun and the way it craves the earth because I know you. You have loved me like that. But I have loved you way before my pubescent days were over. I have even loved you in the prime of our lives. Blame me  if I had kept a soul waiting all these years. Blame me for a broken heart and I will always be back to fix you. Time will tell when I will be able to stay with you. My heart has always belonged to you. As my soul craves yours as much as your soul craves me. I. Mine. If you fall, I will be there. Always. To carry you home. To know you’re safe. I will come home to you. This I promise you.

But who can tell why the moon and sun rotates around the earth twice fold to make two days and nights? Who can tell why the days and nights aren’t equated by just times…. You go by the law of the universe and you will soon go your way and I will go mine as these subtle Mondays go by. there can be none such a thing as a coincidence to a poet, but you, you are honest and pure and you go by the laws of the world. Once again you and I are a thing of the past; unrequited. But the surprise….we meet again….

As I think on this during this December, you were meant for me because laws were made to be broken and I have loved your darkest side. You teach me that magic exists. You are the darkest side to my light and you make an eclipse out of the sun as you are my moon. You are dangerous and I like it. You enchant me. You haunt me like the dark side had won. stay with me even though you find me grim and superstitious because I don’t just wanna show you the world. There is more to that than the world. There is magic. I wanna show you all the things; all the phenomena you shouldn’t encounter. I wanna show you magic. Amongst that magic is the infatuation, the euphoria, the power of love.

We’re going by a circadian rhythm dear, tell me when you want me the next time we meet and become unrequited….

to stay….

I crave you.
I crave you….
I love you….
I love you very much…..
Merry Christmas,
my love…..

And even if these words cannot reach you or touch you in some ways then I have written it as bullshit but I swear I\\\’ll love you right my love…..

I swear to it….
I will promise to prove to you that all this bullshit was worthwhile….

Dream My Lover, Dream

Hell had beaten its wings against the wind in a swirling cold cloud of midnight sun as I invoked you;

My dark lover; creature of the night sky; 

and I was in your dreams tonight

As I fought the good fight in your dreams;

Entangled by your mind’s embrace;

Through your imagination;

In your thoughts 

Hauntingly waiting for me to embrace you.

As you awake in a hot sweat of salty dreams; daydreams;

Thoughts of sweet white skin and cherry lips with tantalizing unearthly eyes 

Hearts In Atlantis

It’s funny that I fall in love almost always as quick as a lash of a whip,

But I would actually drown in you like a landslide diving into water and then I would cry a river as my landslide comes crashing down 

Because deep down inside, fate would never be the end of just you and me.

Here I am sunk in a broken heart 

And you’re the one I would’ve given my heart to in Atlantis.

The Problem With Planets

He was a Summer midnight

And you were a hot Fall day

He was the moon 

You were the sun.

I cannot tell if I had loved the moon more than the sun

For surely I know how hot the sun does burn.

I could never really ever seem to crush a world into a billion smithereens because that would surely break my heart in two; 

I am going to admit that I am a destroyer of worlds

But,

I know for sure though that when the planets aligned, you were all broken into stars, and I was looking once again for fragments of you.

Dear ....,

Dear ….,
It doesn’t matter how far you’ve gotten to or how long it’s been. In other words, it doesn’t matter how long you’re gone. As long as you come home safely for the love of God for Christmas. I admire your services and I wish I could love you just as I would like to. 

I admire the bravery and deep down inside there is a kind of sadness to your eyes that cannot fathom the universe.

I think of you like all girls do. In daydreams where I am the one kissing you. That we are having children and taking life long steps at growing older together….

But then I think of the possibility that we may never meet again….

and….
Sometimes I think of you in terms of the college we were at this past year and I also seemed to think you looked cute with your goggles on, how your hair so nicely complements your eyes and your face; but most of all, how you ever so carefully dissect a cat….

Sweetheart

Baby, your soul is the depth of an ocean and the tide comes washing over the sand, and not a lot of people find you a sweetheart at all, but when you look st me you have butterflies in your stomach and I think I wanna love you because deep down inside, you’re a sweetheart and you’re what I hold most dearest to my heart. To: My loving soldier

Merry Christmas Love,
Merry Christmas….

The Soul of The River

You’re a river I

wish to drink from for you are

the very cusp of all its 

river’s sweetness and its joy

And I love the way you look

At me with your eyes