Thirsty

I craved your body like a dog that needed water.

For you quench my thirst.

And you make me feel warm.

Just Breathe

You look at me like I’m the only girl in the room and you always look like you’re about to kiss me or that you have been.

You? Why you? one person asked me.

I didn’t wanna tell her but when you dance with me everything seems fine.

And you’re always gonna be

The one I’m lovin’.

I know you feel that pressure in your chest whenever you leave me.

I know you love me baby.

Breathe for me.

At least for me.

Just breathe.

The Heartbeat and the Whip

I care for you and I love you

Because knowing you,

You’ll make me weak to my knees.

Your mouth tastes like fresh water from a Spring I wanna keep drinking from and keep drinking.

Your skin is soft like a child’s and your face is young.

You look at me like you were Jesus but you fuck me like a God, and steal my heart like some unknown thief and you make me moan….

Like a whore.

Keep loving me

Because I will forever and always; never stop loving you

….as you make me pulse in bed

And love me like a heartbeat to a whip.

Love Me Again

Say you will love me again

Please give me the privilege to say I love you.

I’m sorry I fucked up but I swear I’ll love you right.

I swear with all my heart I will love you 

Please say it. Say you’ll love me again.

 

And please…. Don’t leave me stranded.

 

Please don’t leave me to rot and guess all the time.

Blindly Stupid

And I wished to God it was only you.

For in my heart of hearts, I had given my heart to you….

I also wanted you to know that I’d miss you all the time even though life sucks and my heart hurts and that I will love you forever and willingly go to hell for you every time.

I will love you forever like I always have.

You wanna know why I know?

Because I always keep tripping over the same stump and in circles I go because I think deep down inside I was stupid, blind and bewitched by you.

You’ll always have my heart and I will be watching you and praying he will save you all the time.

The Incubus

When I am dreaming,

I feel it many times.

In my heart and in my head;

I am doing it to you.

yes my love,

you are the only one I shall love

the only one I am loving at night.

In my thoughts and in my dreams.

You make me feel poetry I cannot write about

you make me see colors I am unable to describe.

and may these words lie unwritten;

I dream I am making love to you.

I dream that here I am moaning like some unholy whore;

to you

unless you wanted to know whether I loved you or not.

and yes darling

love me gently

Say you love me

say you love me

say you do…..

Philosophy on Love

You’re such a silly man….

You’re never puzzled about much but yet you are puzzled about emotions such as love; hate and like and dislike.

you are like a puzzle piece and you complete my entire life.

You love, are the cure to my curses,

yet how then do we philosophize love?

If not love, then why are we still in it?

Why dove, are we censored to feel?

Love is a verb for understanding, caring and loving in all these words that are so wonderful in the soup of life.

You my lover, feel no remorse towards me and yet you are cold. But you still love me.

We are censored to feel with cold winds on our backs and thieves like carnivorous vultures within our premises.

Why can’t we just love?

We are too scared; living in our bubbles such as pride and greed and loathing with self hate.

This is why we cannot love.

Parasites.

Getting Over You

You I can never get rid of,

your skin is coffee colored and your hair is as black as midnight and you dress sensibly and I will remember you just as that.

Chivalrous and lighthearted with a soft body.

You; holding me; making love to me almost every night.

I am never getting over you as you gently stroke me;

guiding me and putting me into the light.

And if you ask me how I know;

I feel you lying next to me and then lovingly sniffing and caressing my hair.

do you think I’m beautiful darling?

don’t tell me you love me.

because in your heart I am kept close;

and I already know….

So Over You

Just when I thought I was over you,

You make my heart pound and o baby,

It is always coming back to you.

I am always coming back to you.

O you drive me crazy baby.

And I love you and I will endure any fight for you;

Stick up for you in the end to protect what is mine…..

And just to let you know I will love you…. forever. Even when the sun goes down.

And you are forever mine.

Say You Will

I turn for home but my Goddamn,

I am blindly in love with you.

I would like to love you for years on end

For the rest of my lifetimes.

I would change time for you.

Make love to you whenever I could.

And if I couldn’t, I would’ve found a way.

You’re my soulmate and you are also in the deepest most darkest parts of my heart.

I recognize you from different times and you seem to be there always.

I imagine you are mine and that you are a part of my universe.

Always loving me.

Always bathing me in your light.

Take me darling.

Take me every day and love me forever.

And after all this, say you love me

Say you will.

The story of “Us”

Here’s the story of us.

We started as colleagues in college courses that led to us.

Then there was your poetry, and then your philosophical thoughts and the way you’d always enchant me with your heart, mind, body and soul.

Your creamy, coffee colored skin and the way your lips look better smiling and preferably, the way they looked grinning.

I look at you.

You are beautiful and I am proven to be just a dreamer.

I see him and he is gorgeous.

He is surrounded by starlight and

He is surrounded all the time;

Looking; like a God.

He is beautiful and he is marrying

Me.

All That You Can't Leave Behind

I met you at a very strange time in my life when i thought that I woud never ever again love.

But you teach me how to.

And that

is all

that

matters.

I love you.

And that

is all that counts.

I love you and all,

that you

can’t

leave

behind.

Be safe my love.

Everyday Of My Life

He tells me everything will be alright and it hurts me to see him in pain.

It’ll kill me to ever see him hurt.

I want more and more and more of him every day of my life.

He also says out of the blue, I hate it when they call. He hates it when they call him.

And out of the wild blue yonder, he’d ask all my dowry’s to call him.

He’s overbearing

And he’s overprotective.

He likes oversharing

Meaning he likes to give.

Your ode; from a vampire

You could never hurt me

But the memory of you will stay with me until your death.

Until the very last breath with me.

Even until the sword is unheathed from the sheath.

Your soul is with me.

So take my heart so that we will find eachother and never again part and unheath this sword from its sheath.

The Mephisto Waltz

You danced with my mind

Just as you danced with with my sanity

And

Nearly

Driven

Me

Insane

With tears in my eyes and a heavyweight drowning dream and a drowning heart

As you

Sent me to hell.

The Favorite

You cannot love me.

Yet you love her.

O how sweet the memory.

Until you’re just a dream about another person with another life without me and just her and you.

I know you don’t love me like that and you will probably never get to know me, but I did love you at a very wrong time and that was when nothing seemed to fit on my life.

I was wishing you would love me.

But I was always wrong.

And now my loneliness has receded to lost and never found.

Her & You

You cannot love me.

Yet you love her.

O how sweet the memory.

Until you’re just a dream about another person with another life without me and just her and you.

Dear Love,

I’ll be writing you love letters everyday of my life….

Love,

Megan

Beautiful-An Essay

The sun hits your face to make you shine so brightly, and your beauty is of a highly chiseled God. You have a big heart and I like the way your eyes are so open to the world and that your mind is more so ever likely a book I wanna read. I like how everything about you surrounded my soul like a light in your presence; guiding me and holding me throughout the night. I love how your name echoes through my heart, my head and my soul. I love writing you essays about yourself because you shine brighter than day itself and I never wanna stop looking at you and I love the fact that I am so proud by far of your accomplishments. You are my sunshine. You are my moon; and there is not a day that goes by that I don’t wish to be yours or to hold you to me, and that while you’re in my arms, you’re in my heart forever. How can anyone stand not to be in your sight. You are my favorite person at every moment of the day. But you come off as the most knowledgeable, most loving person in the world. You are a rock and you actually outshine the moon and the sun with your brilliant presence. How could you not be for them not to swear on even Jesus. By God I’d love you till all the poems were about you.

Wrong

That night, I wanted to spend every moment of my life with you and wallow in your sadness with you.

I just wanted to make things right for you because I thought you could never leave me.

I was wrong and left wandering like a lost child.

I was left wondering elsewhere if you could reciprocate your feelings with mine.

But I loved you;

Craved you;

Wanted you.

But I was wrong.

I was the one who was in love.

But you left me for a broken heart.

The Mask

Iblis had many demons about her before they canonized her name and called her Lucifer.

Michael took a look inside her mind and her heart.

Different from the one he fell in love with as he was plunged into this infernal abyss.

He called Iblis a monster because throughout all her transgressions, he never cared to help her.

Iblis had soon worn a mask to hide from God and his wrath. It was the face of an angel.

As Michael was plunged into his doom, he asked

“Lourde, My God, what have I done?”

And life itself was fulfilled for Michael and the favourite hath fallen.

Down to the earth they had plummeted and although the life on earth never did agree, the favourite decidedly beckoned to him and said,

“Come love for we hath fallen.”

For Lucifer had to teach Michael again to yearn; fear and be humble.

For where there are men, among them were monsters.

Lucifer; Iblis did not fall….

Iblis indulged in walking the earth alone and was still a very beautiful angel who regarded herself as a God.

So she hid as a man with many faces and she had soon perished.

But she was again reborn as a young woman.

Michael recognized his lover through her soul and ripped out her flesh and left her shamed; raped; left for dead upon learning of Iblis’ mask.

Soon she became….

Queen of the Damned.

But she had many demons within her soul. She also had this strange ambition to find her lover one day.

She saw Michael again seasons later, but he was no longer in love with her.

So she left weeping in the valley of death.

Wondering & Wishing

I will lay in my bed alone wondering what could have been.

Hour upon hour;

Looking into that mirror of a ceiling.

Wondering; questioning.

Wishing that all this time spent was with you.

Wondering how your lips would feel brushing past my cheek.

And wishing….

To kiss them.

Us As A Concept

I wonder about

“us” but I know in my heart

there will never be an “us.”

I shouldn’t think it.

Poetry Part 2

I read about love

I read about love that can

never be and love that is

from hopeless romance.

Poetry

When you ask me what

kind of poetry I have

been reading, it was

the hope that love really does

actually thrive, love and live.

The Foolish Clown

Sadness,

There is only sadness.

There was no love; there was no time.

No timetable; no circadian rhythm that could ever bring back

Happiness; trust;

And a feeling of youth.

There is

Nothing.

My mother never taught me love.

And to be loved; well….

Love is a four lettered myth.

I was young.

I wasn’t beautiful and I couldn’t be more….

I was just a person in a small room of my own; my own apartment

Writing words that did not matter.

Writing poetry

I was a foolish girl who had dreams of a coffee colored man who could never really love me.

I was a fool!

So I took my sadness around my apartment space and then outside the building thinking of castles in the clouds and paper dreams in the air.

No matter,

I can’t love.

I can’t love any longer what I cannot.

I can’t love what could not love me.

I was a foolish girl thinking I could ever be happy with just a smile on my face.

Nonetheless! Fake happiness.

Thank you.

For letting me feel liberated and free for such a short time.

I was a foolish girl who had dreams of a coffee colored man who could never really love me.

I was a fool!

The foolish clown!

Change Of Heart

If we had known each other a bit better,

Do you think you would ever

at least spare mercy?

First Choice

I was never your

first choice but I felt that I

had to hurt because I thought

you would have loved me.

With You

There is no place in the world I’d rather be in than with you….

Because I’m the one that loved you.

The one I’d rather be with

For eternal life.

I love you and that is all

You need

To know.

Fuck our differences.

Fuck them.

I love you,

And I will always find you as you’ve always found me.

It was almost as if you’ve never really had left,

And it was almost as if I had known

That you love me….

The importance of the impossible is endless….

say you love me….

The Machine Heart

She dreamt about love.

It was so hard for her to love with a machine heart.

Till she saw him;

The cogs within her heart set fire,

As he left her.

In the rain.