For A Second….

We live in seconds knowing that they will soon die in us.

Forbidden Love

I never knew how forbidden it would be to love you.

Aborted Replicated Missions

I can’t even keep a relationship because to be young and in love forever with someone who is dead can never surely work in a marriage or even a family.

Although flowers may grow from your body to the surface of your grave to plant a garden of the most beautiful looking flowers from your body, you are never dead for you are eternally alive….

In my heart.

I look for you in a terrible song through another terrible legacy that I intended to carry. It’s just terrible because I just couldn’t carry yours.

When the water is tainted I’d still find myself drowning in you…. You may not know what this means but in another life you will stay purer, more innocent and truer than the one I am betrothed to. I will always be thinking of what could’ve been.

I cling to your love because I’m terrified of the eclipse that hovers over this one. You can bet I was always terrified of love but Krissy, I loved you before I even got to tell you. But it was too late. Krissy, if you can hear me you’d be the one to save me.

Truth is I loved you way back before I even knew what the damn love was.

Darling, you’ve loved a poet. But now your tragedy just sickly lays in my art.

My ideas are simply replicas of the replies I’ve failed to send to you. Just simply replicas of tainted art. A replica of all the things I’ve failed to say.

This is terrible because I didn’t want him and he sure didn’t want me.

Every time I try to tell you how great we could’ve been; O how the silence grows stronger.

So strong that I couldn’t even wrench my own gut to tell you that I love you.

My heart, you’ve hurt me in the worst way possible and kind of damned my soul to a man who doesn’t need me.

A man who didn’t love me but only wanted my body.

Believe me when I say you left me alone.

The Water

I dream of saying your name.

At often times I remember him.

I remember how he had taught me to love the water.

But you set my soul on fire and every now and then I search for you in water.

To Drown

I’ve swam in you so many times that I just wanted to drop down only to drown in you completely because I just can’t bear for you to leave me.

Just don’t go and this time, stay a little while longer….

You know that I will love you from now until eternity forever.

Just as the sun sets and goes down and when the moon is high.

I will be loving you endlessly like the permafrost of the snowfall that nips your nose.

I will be loving you like the fire you make every time you light your candle.

I will be loving you like the air that you breathe.

I will be loving you like the earth’s grainy sands that you walk upon because I love you more than the multitude of small particles of the sand you count.

If only you’ve loved me I swear I could’ve warmed your heart and loved you to the depths of the ocean’s unfathomable trenches.

I’ve swam in you so many times that I just wanted to drop down only to drown in you completely because I just can’t bear for you to leave me.

Just don’t go and this time, stay a little while longer….

For I would have done anything to drown in your ocean.

Phase 1

Only you seem to phase me as the music starts to play.

Letting Go

This isn’t working out.

I’m in love with you, but we’re so far apart.

And when I’m with you….

Well.

I’m me.

Don’t let me go.

To Drown In You

I’ll remember that voice like I always will.

That was the voice that used to melt my heart.

Your voice sounded familiar like the song i hear from the crashing waves against the sea.

And here I am looking like I’m ready to drown in you.

But that’s supposed to be a secret because you don’t love me.

Fear

My worst fear was to wake up alone to feel lonely, and you just confirm all my fear and doubts.

Only You

I just wanted to be held closely by you; only you.

Dead

I could have loved you

I thought that you were my earth,

The sea that led me to land.

You left me to die.

Heartbroken

The sky won’t allow it, but I am heartbroken for you.

By Myself

I had never wanted to wake up in bed all by myself.

The Worst

Little does he know

that the worst feeling in the

world is being unwanted,

broken and alone.

What Love Should Look Like

I talk to you about starting a family and saying how fate had it in us to be for each other.

How we could look out on the ocean reflecting the sun.

How we could hold hands for hours in the evening at midnight watching the stars and the ones that fall.

How we’d teach our children to love school and help them build ambition for a future.

How we could just die holding each other in an embrace.

And you’d say this is what love should look like.

More

I have never wanted less. I’ve only wanted you more.

Forever

Not all things that were meant to be will last long and in memory; well that does not last long either.

The Dreamer

I was just a dreamer who dreamt of love but you broke me.

I Knew

I found you. Not because you were sad but because I knew.

The Weakness

There’s no one I’d rather be with than with you.

Because when you’re near, I get butterflies in my stomach.

I hear the soft breathing of your luscious mouth that I think would have meant for a very good conjuring for me to you.

I don’t know much but I do know that I love you.

Sometimes when the day is done, I think of you because you’re all I’ve got.

At the end of the day, you’re on my mind.

I think you’re made of stardust and everything that accompanies the heavens.

I can only wish to be in your arms and you may not notice it but I know you love me deep down because I believe that someday you’ll think of me.

I don’t want you to wonder but I know that if you’re looking for me, I know you’ll find me in your heart somewhere.

Your presence guides me to the memory of your kisses and mostly, of you in my arms.

It’s not that I can’t live without you, it’s just that you give me tiny butterflies and know this;

You stir my heart with the rare taste of your lips.

You’re my poison,

You’re my Achilles heel.

And I’ll be thinking of you everyday of my life.

I love you dearly.

Because you’re the only one who can touch my heart.

The Harvest Moon

It’s a half moon. Will we meet on the other side again?

I Do

I know you may not like me,

but if in case you do.

Please say “I do.”

Within You

You are a lush garden of mazes that I wish to explore.

The book that I just cannot wait to finish.

I knew that my heart knew from the start that I was suddenly connected to you.

But our stars do not align.

You were my forbidden destiny that was headed for fate.

I’ve loved….

I’ve loved every inch of your body.

But I cannot take part of you with me with what I treasure in my heart.

You have always been mine and we are worlds apart.

You seek solace in other worlds and I cannot seem to grasp the colors of your aura becasue you are a different shade less harmfulbut cautious like koi.

I need you in my life.

But…. I can’t live within you….

I will stay until I cannot feel the warmth of your sun.

You see, we were connected from the start.

I cannot speak the language of the stars or the constellations on your back but from what I do know….

You are the language to my universe.

You are the page I shall leave empty for if I break your heart, I shall surely perish in my own fire and wait forever for you to quench my thirst.