Wednesday, December 26, 2018

The Good Place

You were like some dark apparition in the night of the dark world. The dark world was where I roamed, but where no traces of me could ever be found in the land of the light.

Lo let wander! I have searched for her in places unknown but she left me like a sullen creature in the cruel dark night and as for woes, my remorse and my regrets filled my curiosity as I became a creature of the night.

Stalking and preying amongst the city like a shadow of all men and women of this good place.

It scared me to think of such an evil place as the good place, but there I was. Crawling among the shadows of the midnight hour.

Like some hopeless sailor bound at sea; I became night’s pervert. Stalking people of that good place.

I wonder, what makes a man such a man.

But of the night???

Never to return no more….

The Midnight Friend

He looked over my shoulder at my poetry….
I was soon to be married.
He said, “Can you be anymore romantic?”
There was nothing more romantic than the way his eyes sparkled in the moonlit night.
But he was only my friend. I loved him dearly and so did he; I.
“My dear,” I said. “I kiss you every time you look into my eyes.”
It took a lot for me to tell him that only because he brung back memories of my childhood and of the past so often….
Tempted to kiss him, I walked silently away as he watched close by.
Besides, I couldn’t have that…. the relationship; the commitment or the energy for passion.
Yet there we were in the same boat; the same darkness.
Both vagabonds in the night.

Kissing You

I could just keep kissing you by the way your body holds mine….

just by looking

at

You.

Sunday, December 23, 2018

The Rhythm

It is like the world knew we would rule it.

We both knew that we had the world to ourselves between our fingers.

Before we separated,

Time took us apart,

But what if the one you loved came back from the past?

It was hauntingly clear that you would be in my daydreams for all my life.

My lifestyle becomes yours in my heart, in my head and in my lonely room

In my empty bed I look up at the ceiling and of course I look at the cracks and creases

And

I

See

You….

You are in my body, my mind, my heart, and my soul.

You take the breath of my hair in and your body temperature lies hot in the nighttime while your skin

Sweats

Against

Mine.

It is a rhythmic beating that my heart inhales when I go near you as we soar into the sky and into the sun.

I love you my angel.

I love

I love you

Angel-Boy

If each angel had an instrument;

You’d be like a guitarist

You always seem to know the notes written on old pages before we were born.

You knew I loved you

And I knew you had loved me

Too much….

But when is too much ever enough?

You are like a guitarist.

You strum at the very best of my heart and I love you ….. so

You were my sweetheart since I was young,

And we were destined to meet by fate.

And fate has it in store for us that you will be loving me forever

And if simple forevers aren’t long enough, remember me and cherish me for forevers aren’t long enough to withstand the love in my heart

So fly back and be with me;

My angel….

Soar high.

Christmas

O how I love you….

You are the sweetness of an eclair during Christmas….

The frostbite that nips on my nose

Like paper butterflies

In June

That fly in the wind

O how I long to feel the sand beneath my toes as the shoreline tide sweeps in….

The sun on my face.

You are my Summer in Winter

Fly safely soldier;

Return home to me.

Come back to love me

O though I know;

This was never meant to last.

Merry Christmas my love

I love you….

Enough

We were just kids building castles in the sky,

But o honey, it’s only a paper moon.

And you are still my fallen star

You shine down on me and wrap me up in stardust

And that is enough….

Thursday, December 20, 2018

You

When I saw you,

I never intended on falling in love with you and the bonuses of being with you are that you are blessed with many good concepts.

You look cute in your glasses,

Your hair’s tidied up cute,

You have broad, masculine shoulders that fit your uniform

And to top it off, you have a cute face and a nice tint to your light skin

And…. you’d even look hot if your name was a dorky one.

And this is how all girls think

But maybe I’m wrong….

Maybe it isn’t,

But without your existence,

I wouldn’t have imagined the capacity of this: just being in love with you

And this is because your presence makes me warm and not alone in the dark no matter how very cold you are to the world

And your touch makes me shake in pure happiness.

But maybe, then again,

I’m right.

Blood and Fire

You demanded fire;

All the while I demanded blood;

And no mere mortal could bring me a man or woman to their knees

But

You.

I am not a mere queen.

I am a goddess.

Wednesday, December 19, 2018

Return To Me

We were just kids building castles out of clouds and sand.

But the wind and the waves took you overseas and it told me that you may never be back.

You promised your heart to me and I gave you mine back.

The world went round and I soon had forgotten all about you.

They say it takes 2,000 years for the earth to twirl round once.

So far, the seconds turned to minutes,

The minutes turned into hours,

And the hours turned into days, weeks, months until they turned into years.

I have waited until I turned into fragments of dust and genuinely,

You damned my soul

Because you couldn’t return….

I can’t love; can’t hate in this body; this lifestyle;

So I write and I wait for the next time you will return to me.

Lifestyles

I was in my own magical world.

Where for once I was the princess;

and you were my prince who had swept me off my feet.

But you see, that was never a possibility for of course I knew that I would never really see you again.

I was never really involved in your life.

And in this lifestyle,

I believed it would be you.

Paper Birds

You were cruel.

I was just some girl building castles in the sky and chasing paper birds, believing that they were mine when they were actually just for her….

Monday, December 17, 2018

Jealous

O love they are just paper clouds of broken dreams and stars are just fragments of stories waiting to be retold to the world as they shine underneath the moonlit night in the dark of the sky.

Baby, the moon tells me everything will be alright and the stars are filled with our fate because we belong to each other.

We belong together and baby, they’re just jealous.

Friday, December 14, 2018

Betrayed By The Sun

Betrayed by the sun,

I couldn’t seem to find time for you.
as ultraviolet red seeps through your hair….
I could only find you at midnight in the darkest hours and
as i walk through the valley of evil,
there you are amongst the fires of hell…
making it seem natural as your flames lick my body.
so come into my body and love me tender….
if not hold me close so we can burn amongst the flames
into
ashes…..

Fortune Had It

My cards said that throughout all our troubles, our time together was fine.

My cards were telling me that after all our doubts we’ve made it.
We made it baby,
And we were just on our way to be together forever no matter how many troubles are crossed between our bundaries….
Together as star-crossedlovers, love me darling for I adore you….

Godspeed

Sadly, you left me before I could tell you about just how much I love you.

It breaks my heart that you would leave.
Josh,
The best thing to do now is reminisce on about you 
I love you darling 
Godspeed.
You’re my hero.
come back to me

Tell Me

You look at me as though askingly if you matter to me or not

Sometimes you look at me as though I’m the most beautiful woman in the world and that I save you from the darkness.
You kiss me as though you need me
You fuck me as though you want me.
Love me darling.
Love me and I will give you the price of the stars 
I would climb mountains for you.
Tell me you love me darling.
Do tell me.
Tell me you’ll never leave me.

Thursday, December 13, 2018

Glance

There’s nothing like the crisp wind in your hair

Or the way your eyes subtly glance at mine the way they used to.
The stars twinkle in the night sky only for you.
I love your softness.
That is,
The softness of your soul
The warmth of your smile
Your subtle glances behind my back that remind me that I am never really alone.
Because deep down inside,
Am
Glancing 
Back at you

The Longing For Sweet Nothings

I long to love you….
I wish I could hold you in my arms in the hush of night with your soft, warm lips….
Kiss me roughly darling before you go.
But we will cross paths again someday I know that and I will be the one to love you….for all eternity….I long to touch you….
I do mean it with the bottom of my heart and what’s worse than that?
Knowing that I cannot. I cannot purge the feeling away.
I doubt that whenever I feel the longing to touch you that if I do we may never pass this way again.

I long to make love to you….
I long to hear my name escape your lips….
I long to hear the tender wisp of breaths escaping your moaning mouth….
I long to kiss your lips….
to feel your tongue over and under mine….
to kiss you wildly;
like a starving animal
as you pull my body closer
to
yours….

A Broken Heart

I am lost without you
I am but just becoming a mere memory
and a heart that waits for you to feel the same way I feel about you too.
I think of you in a castle in the clouds and I wonder if we could just lie out in the blue sky again and rebuild the clouds before our walls become solid and secret gardens form within the interwoven locks of our hearts.
I look at the stars and see how far away they are from the moon.
You are the moon and all the stars long to be close to you just as I do.
we are just imagining our future in castles of clouds and stars that can never touch the moon.
we are just broken hearts
waiting for someone to fix us….
I want you and for some reason, I know you….
In desperate hope, I’d just only hope that you’d want me too….
Come home safely soldier….

Wednesday, December 12, 2018

A Mix of Genders

I could be your lesbian 

Since you’re my gaylord 
But you see, I can’t change you 
And I can’t ever be just that
A lesbian 
Because I’m too in love with myself
Since you couldn’t love me back

Tuesday, December 11, 2018

Poisoned Dreams

You’re the poison

That ensnares my senses,
That embodies my soul
And stuns my heart
Making my mind swirl into a cloud of my dreams that make no sense,
But then I see you
And you’re thee only thing that seems to make a meaning.

Substitution

There is no substitute 

For the wind that blows in your hair,
For the water that embodies your body
And
It’s 
Not
Fair 
Because it
Is not 
I

The Siren

Your voice

Is the only sound
I’ll ever
want
to
hear.

Monday, December 10, 2018

Persephone and Hades

As Persephone got up from her slumber with the devil, the devil asked….”Darling would you like to go back up again?”

Persephone eyed him lustfully and curiously and said….

“No. Because hell is not a heaven without you.”

The Silent Killer

You were once my world;
once my light at the end of all dark tunnels,
you were the moonlit night of starry skies….
I enjoyed your laughter
I enjoyed your smile….
It was in the small hours of night that I had held you
only to be killed within a short while.
I was unable to touch you
and I was so in love that I did no longer know how to love you then
And that was the end of that 

Friday, December 7, 2018

Unrequited Love

Dear Love,
I will love you like the wisp of the wind that floats across the salty ocean breeze. I will because on these subtle days, someday I know I will get to fix you when your world is falling down. I will love you like the moon and the sun and the way it craves the earth because I know you. You have loved me like that. But I have loved you way before my pubescent days were over. I have even loved you in the prime of our lives. Blame me  if I had kept a soul waiting all these years. Blame me for a broken heart and I will always be back to fix you. Time will tell when I will be able to stay with you. My heart has always belonged to you. As my soul craves yours as much as your soul craves me. I. Mine. If you fall, I will be there. Always. To carry you home. To know you’re safe. I will come home to you. This I promise you.

But who can tell why the moon and sun rotates around the earth twice fold to make two days and nights? Who can tell why the days and nights aren’t equated by just times…. You go by the law of the universe and you will soon go your way and I will go mine as these subtle Mondays go by. there can be none such a thing as a coincidence to a poet, but you, you are honest and pure and you go by the laws of the world. Once again you and I are a thing of the past; unrequited. But the surprise….we meet again….

As I think on this during this December, you were meant for me because laws were made to be broken and I have loved your darkest side. You teach me that magic exists. You are the darkest side to my light and you make an eclipse out of the sun as you are my moon. You are dangerous and I like it. You enchant me. You haunt me like the dark side had won. stay with me even though you find me grim and superstitious because I don’t just wanna show you the world. There is more to that than the world. There is magic. I wanna show you all the things; all the phenomena you shouldn’t encounter. I wanna show you magic. Amongst that magic is the infatuation, the euphoria, the power of love.

We’re going by a circadian rhythm dear, tell me when you want me the next time we meet and become unrequited….

to stay….

I crave you.
I crave you….
I love you….
I love you very much…..
Merry Christmas,
my love…..

And even if these words cannot reach you or touch you in some ways then I have written it as bullshit but I swear I\\\’ll love you right my love…..

I swear to it….
I will promise to prove to you that all this bullshit was worthwhile….

Monday, December 3, 2018

Dream My Lover, Dream

Hell had beaten its wings against the wind in a swirling cold cloud of midnight sun as I invoked you;

My dark lover; creature of the night sky; 
and I was in your dreams tonight
As I fought the good fight in your dreams;
Entangled by your mind’s embrace;
Through your imagination;
In your thoughts 
Hauntingly waiting for me to embrace you.
As you awake in a hot sweat of salty dreams; daydreams;
Thoughts of sweet white skin and cherry lips with tantalizing unearthly eyes 

Hearts In Atlantis

It’s funny that I fall in love almost always as quick as a lash of a whip,

But I would actually drown in you like a landslide diving into water and then I would cry a river as my landslide comes crashing down 

Because deep down inside, fate would never be the end of just you and me.

Here I am sunk in a broken heart 

And you’re the one I would’ve given my heart to in Atlantis.

The Problem With Planets

He was a Summer midnight

And you were a hot Fall day
He was the moon 
You were the sun.
I cannot tell if I had loved the moon more than the sun
For surely I know how hot the sun does burn.
I could never really ever seem to crush a world into a billion smithereens because that would surely break my heart in two; 
I am going to admit that I am a destroyer of worlds
But,
I know for sure though that when the planets aligned, you were all broken into stars, and I was looking once again for fragments of you.

Sunday, December 2, 2018

Dear ....,

Dear ….,
It doesn’t matter how far you’ve gotten to or how long it’s been. In other words, it doesn’t matter how long you’re gone. As long as you come home safely for the love of God for Christmas. I admire your services and I wish I could love you just as I would like to. 

I admire the bravery and deep down inside there is a kind of sadness to your eyes that cannot fathom the universe.


I think of you like all girls do. In daydreams where I am the one kissing you. That we are having children and taking life long steps at growing older together….


But then I think of the possibility that we may never meet again….


and….
Sometimes I think of you in terms of the college we were at this past year and I also seemed to think you looked cute with your goggles on, how your hair so nicely complements your eyes and your face; but most of all, 
how you ever so carefully dissect a cat….

Saturday, December 1, 2018

Sweetheart

Baby, your soul is the depth of an ocean and the tide comes washing over the sand, and not a lot of people find you a sweetheart at all, but when you look st me you have butterflies in your stomach and I think I wanna love you because deep down inside, you’re a sweetheart and you’re what I hold most dearest to my heart. To: My loving soldier

Merry Christmas Love,
Merry Christmas….

The Soul of The River

You’re a river I

wish to drink from for you are

the very cusp of all its 
river’s sweetness and its joy
And I love the way you look
At me with your eyes 

Thursday, November 29, 2018

Imagination

I dream I’m touching your body;

I imagine I am near you.
Almost all the time;
But I guess that’s just my imagination and I guess that’s what every girl wants.
And imagination can be cruel
But cannot be dealt with….
It is the imaginings, the rambling of a young girl for you to think you’d want me too.

Wednesday, November 28, 2018

Star-Crossed Lovers

We were just two lost stars that happened to find eachother by accident.

Maybe it was fate that separated us
But I know we could have showed the world something other than ugliness 
The two of us could have touched eachother 
Maybe you could’ve been something to me,
But as we got older time took us apart
Soon we had turned into shooting stars;
Lost in the galaxy 

But we could never pass this way again….
For we were only star-crossed.
Fate would never allow us to be together for the night sky was endless and stars could never touch eachother as the moon looked on.
For you see; we are just shooting stars with different paths.
And sometimes the stars are blind.
So maybe when everything’s at peace 
We can be together and finally touch eachother’s hearts 
Someday when everything is safe 

Sunday, November 25, 2018

Indigenous

They weren’t much like the blonde girl next door, but they were beautiful nonetheless. Some would call them chink, gook, Japs, yellow and sometimes cross-eyed. As for islanders they were called barbaric; lethal; threats; guineas.

They weren’t much like the blonde girl next door, but they were beautiful nonetheless. They weren’t yellow; they were beautiful like porcelain.
They weren’t much like the blonde girl next door, but they were beautiful nonetheless. They weren’t cross-eyed not chink. They were the shape of almonds and they had a fine piercing stare; but they smiled with happiness in their eyes.
 
They weren’t Americans but they are a people who tolerate and have their happiness with what little they have.
 
An oppressed racial group; they have suffered from the death of their cultures and left all they can’t leave behind.
 
Thus, it is the colonizer.
 
They weren’t black and they weren’t white.
 
Barbaric is a word used for cannibalism.
 
They had sleek brown skin and were considered Asian by their counterparts.
 
Lethal? Once a peaceful people now fighters in army combat. Now they are lethal.
 
Threats? Aren’t we the ones threatening them the most? Leave the war with thee Americans. But as a spiritual people, we become uncomplacent.
 
Is this really what the spirits want for us?
 
Guineas. Grease balls. Old names of the 1960’s.
 
Now Italian-American….
 
What people want are to be known as indigenous.
 
What people in big countries take on are their smaller counterparts.
 
But why? 
 
POWER Because without power there is 

COWARDICE and the smaller counerparts help us by winning their wars under their

FEAR….
 
 
 
 
 
 
 

Saturday, November 24, 2018

Thinkin Bout you

I’ll be dreaming about you tomorrow and almost every night.
I will be probably somewhere East by the time you get to read this and propose to me
And I will probably be married for God’s sakes and

I’ll be seeing nothing but darkness when I close my eyes in my lonely room, but deep down you know that somehow I’ll be seeing you.

But only in my dreams,
I’ll be thinkin’ bout you.

Thursday, November 22, 2018

My Great Perhaps

There was so much more to that.
What I saw in you….
I see different worlds of the sun in your eyes….
You….
You are my moon.
you are my greatest possibility
my great perhaps.
Now I know what it means by having these subtle great possibilities;
This could have meant I could have been with you.
Perhaps I will keep wishing for you and spend my life just wishing.
Wishing of the great perhaps of us.
You make up all my stars and my constellations.
and I’m so glad I have you….
But things cannot last forever and not everything stays gold….

Wednesday, November 21, 2018

Shooting Stars

I’ll be seeing you someday in my future 
Missing you 
Loving you
Cherishing you
You’re my shooting star.
I could only wish to be with you;
Yet you’re so far away
and I cannot reach you 
I’ll be the one to love you
No matter
No matter how ugly you get whatsoever 
I love you
I love you
I do…..

Without A Trace

“Not another love story.” He sighed into her chest.


“This is certainly not a love story.” She said while typing.

“I was in the prime of my life. Certainly the time when I was ripe of age. But no darling….. this is certainly not another love story. I was ready to love but I couldn’t even begin to start about why I was so weakened and my heart and soul wearying of love. You see dear heart. My heart was breaking. Because you shall hear me off again after she comes running into your arms. I will never love again. For shame on my heart if I should walk from you. Because you had walked out on me.”

“Where will I find you?” He asked.
“Among the stars.” I whispered gently.
Before I could tell him goodbye,
I had awoken from a deep sleep, but I found him looking at me with the saddest eyes.
Without him knowing that I was prepared to leave.
Without a trace.

Monday, November 19, 2018

La Credo

I will not go quietly into that fair night 

As long as I know there is a God incarnate and a devil behind me.
Lo I fare in the land of darkness and all that will hurt me,
I shall fear no evil
For god is my rock and my shadow.
 
Lo though I walk in the valley of the shadow of death I shall fear no evil
For the lorde is my rock and my sword….

Sunday, November 18, 2018

Sweet Surrender

The softness of your body; naked on my lips lingers into the next morning
as my fingertips caress your hips like the morning fog kisses the dew.
My clothes slowly slip off like butter on my sweating body.
I shudder as you kiss my forehead and shiver as you caress my limbs;
your forehead now on par with mine as you kiss my lips down to my breasts.

I gasp with my heart in my throat as your cologne drives my head spinning once you delve deeply between my legs and plunge there plummeting me into the sweetest surrender.

Saturday, November 17, 2018

Cheap Thrills and Cherry Lips

 He’s the type of boy who you can have.

A boy who liked girls who liked cheap thrills.

A boy who was growing into a man.

The kind of man who was sweeter than most people.

He’d give you roses if you weren’t happy.

He’d hold your hand when the weather was going through a rainy day.


***


She was the type of girl who understood monsters.

Who craved them on her sweet cherry lips

Who kissed them for the way they operated.

He craved her

She did not crave him….

Although he’d try his best to save her;

She was a lunatic.

She was crazy and she loved monsters;

So they left her one.

She was never one though for cheap thrills 
She had to get the thrill of being…
She had wanted to feel

And she loved him instead of the boy she could have had because she thought that that he could make her feel with cheap thrills and cherry lips.

Friday, November 16, 2018

Purity

The boy with the mysterious eyes gave me purity in the form of roses. He was sweeter than most people. 
He had kindness in his eyes and a heart…. thank you
I don’t need them at all
But I love them anyway.
He has kind eyes and the kind of graceful smile you’ll only see in people who love art and simplicity.

Can’t Stop The Moonlight

What is so romantic about the moon?

Is it that when the moonlight hits the clouds, 
It tends to disappear against the pitch black of the night?
It is the moon. 
And it is I.
We are alone 
and I am thinking of you.
And I cannot help but think
I can’t stop the moonlight from hitting the clouds.
It’s almost funny how a few months to a year can change the moonlit nights 

Porcelain

He was a porcelain doll
Something I couldn’t touch,
Something I wanted to cradle in my heart and in my hands.
I couldn’t bare to touch him
To leave my mark on my doll of porcelain…..

Thursday, November 15, 2018

Your Body

You and I were so terribly sure of eachother….

How could I live to love a man so violently fierce and overprotective?

I love you and you I will be kissing until forever

as the sun beats down on the rays that caress your skin

holding you in your silent sighs and silhouettes….

the rain after the sun beating down upon you

kisses you as your sweat beads down to your tasty lips.

you go into the shallowest part of the seas as the seawater hugs your hips

and melts you into its waters.

Yes, you are the sun the moon and all my stars that make up this constellation of the piercing black night…. after the sun and rain and the wind caress your disheveled hair.

all I wanna do is love your body….

right.

Scattered

You reminded me of music and you reminded me about how to tolerate you when you hurt me

Cause you knew that I couldn’t 

And it’s funny cause you knew what was to come,
But knowing you; 
You wrecked the meaning of happy endings 
And you tore apart my heart,
Shattered my soul
And left my mind scattered

The Childhood Friend

We weren’t little anymore….

He was my best childhood friend until he left.
I saw him again and I thought I could have the chance to tell him I love him;
But no.
He left me;
To cry

The Silence

When he was gone;

Sometimes silence was always better.
But with that kind of face; he could make me smile ten times more than my sadness.
And sometimes; sometimes he made me feel like there was something more than being empty;
Than being alone all the time.
He could make me laugh my fears away,
But as I was laughing; I couldn’t see that I was falling down some dark cliff
Because he left me feeling cold
With my heart in my throat;
And flowers in my hair
I jumped and I fell hard with my broken heart.

Wednesday, November 14, 2018

Forevers

It was the way everyone wanted to fall in love. Love at first sight. But we were two inseparable people with many difficulties in our stars. Our love was not like most lovers’. It was a falling comet of colliding stars and although dead, it held meaning because for me babe; it made a universe of forevers. 

Tuesday, November 13, 2018

Shucks

I miss what was never mine.

I wanted what I could never have.
And shucks!
I wish i was your lover.
And damn!
I wish I had you.
I wish for what I could be
I wished I could be with you
I wished for you 

Hell and Back

I have gone through hell and back trying to tell you I love you

But in all I’ve done,
I no longer love you that way
Because I can’t love you like that cause you wouldn’t let me.

Monday, November 12, 2018

My Shining Star

You are my sun and my moon.
You light up the night sky.
I’m amazed by your strength and courage.
You’re my veteran.
You’re my shining star.

Saturday, November 10, 2018

Angel Boy

I love you

You’re my angel boy
On a jet fighter 

I love the way your muscles tense up when you’re around me;
The way your arms flex..

I love the way you sniff my hair every Monday of the week.
I’m going to miss you for the rest of my life when you leave to some far away place while I wait for you to come back home to me; to safety.

I love you
You’re my angel boy 
On a jet fighter 

My Soldier

When you fuck me

Our bodies pulse in between with heat
As I pulse around you.
Loving you;
Enjoying you.
I enjoy you.
Come home to me in one piece and reassure me that you’ll be safe and that you’ll return to love me when you get back from being my soldier 

Before You Go

The smell of your scent on my pillow is a breeze where you’re so far away.
The touch of your lips on mine is like kissing a God.
You love me roughly as you push and pull me on my bed.
You leave quietly without warning.
I wait for you to come home in one piece and that is our love story as you stroke and caress my body on yours.
Love me 
Fuck me harder 
Before
You
Go
Come home to me 
Come back 

Crowley

Dead men can’t tell through dead man’s eyes….

Cause in dead man they see nothing….


Aleister Crowley was a famous magician. He held many secrets. They say he lived at the Louisiana bayou but for some reason, people kept disappearing. They say the dark knight of the soul  finally came and got him.


As for me, I was thee survivor out of all of them.


There is a feast where the good people of the good place go. It is far and the journey is long.


Crowley used to say it straight to my face.


***


I was once in love. I was his moon he’d tell me.

Alfred was a god fearing man and he saw what he saw. It is what it is. 


Back in the backyard basement, we kept a statue of Behemoth and my father was a pastor. Always preaching the word of God’s gospels.


One fateful day, he became a lunatic. Enraged by not my father or God. He worshipped my father and the gospel of God so much that he decided to make an occultist nation with me. My name was Helena Rothschild and soon we were gonna be the bayou’s bests.


He had a wife and cheated on her. One day he beat her to death and whiplashed her in the head. He then took her blood from her forehead and saith “This is the true and final blood of Behemoth.” He then sacrificed his wife with her knife and told me to join him using the words “us.”


***


Alfred had a niece. Everyday they would chop wood for a fire. He loved her so much that one day Alfred decided not to send her to his barn. 


***


She had also blindly worshipped Behemoth through her uncle’s teachings and they both together had learned to be something. Always filling the chalice with blood. 


My name is Alice. Alice Cobbler. I’ve never believed it was Magick. Pure, raw untamed magick. But my uncle, he believed he loved truly only the demon. Now only the demon in the backyard.


That was when I saw the bodies. Some bruised with no eyes and some cut up and bloodied. Some with cut fingers. 


There lay his wife, Genevieve. He breasts were leaking blood at their tips. My uncle would chop the fellowship up if they ever got too friendly with him. He was only a magician and soon I knew I would be dead too. Because dead men tell no tales but they don’t tell lies either only cause of their marks on their bodies.


I was in love with one of the police officers. His name was Tommy Tucker. He was a spy. Always knocking on my door an’ givin me apple pies.


They started to rot and soon my uncle got caught in a fight and they arrested him and told me he was going to the good place.


Tommy looked at me; the love of my life. He looked at me like Jesus to a child and told me straight. 


“Don’t say anything. Stay dead. Dead men can’t tell through dead man’s eyes….

Cause in dead man they see nothing….”


“Tommy? Marry me. Won’t ya?”


He looked at me. 

“ I’m married honey. I couldn’t marry you even if I tried.”


He turned to the car. He gave me his phone number and a gun. It was a pistol and it was blackened; old but polished.


“If you decide to be; kill the right ones kid.”


He then shooed me away.


Soon I didn’t tell anyone anything about it.


I was the walking plague of sickness.


A sociopath with no boundaries and I kept coming into wards and they taught me to shoot it. I was now educated as an army brat and soon I became dead man.


No one knew me. No one saw me.

 

And I stood there. As dead man. 


Soon I became a lesbian lover. They called me the greatest lover because I took care of all my girlfriends.


Then later on, I found a letter


“Welcome to the good place.

Join our fellowship 

And learn to worship with God.

Aleister Crowley.”


I almost had a heart attack as I grabbed the phone and called the police immediately.

Friday, November 9, 2018

Keep on Marching

Echoes of your boots down the hallway are now a memory of my past

And I believe that someday you’ll never come home to me but to her.
And that my love;
Is all I’ll ever need in this life.
To assure myself that you’re coming home alive as you fly your jet fighter.
The bombs getting close and close to the bad moon.
Please stay home
Stay with me.
Love me 
Love me like you used to.
***
As the bombs come flying through the air faster than the speed of cars,
Come home to me.
And keep on marching.
Keep on marching.
And come home to me….

Thursday, November 8, 2018

Summer to Winter

I think of you in my daydreams and in my heart.

What is left of the time spent with you are subtle Mondays and sometimes you’re the one who defeats my monsters of the pit of my hells.
You set the room on fire 
And when you leave you leave the frost to come over my heart and my head.
You’re my only soldier.
I want you home.
Where I would wait for you to come home everyday

The Room

In the subtlety of my lonely room,

Despite the dark corners of my closet.
I think of you most although it’s been a year
I carefully wait for you 
To come back to me.
To come back home.
I get frustrated and sometimes I blame it on myself for letting you go so quietly; so quickly.
I think of you from time to time and I cannot help but wonder 
What do you dream about in the darkness of your dreams….
Where are your thoughts lying in while you’re without me?
Come home to safety 
Come home for me.
You can’t be everybody’s soldier.
Be mine….
Mine.

Thursday, November 1, 2018

Jealousy

I’m jealous of the way your comb brushes through your hair.

I’m jealous of the way the water hugs your hips as the sun kisses your body.

I’m jealous of the way your uniform looks so good comforting you while you wear it.

But I hate those boots.

Because I will be home praying everyday that you will return to me in one piece.

Is it no surprise?

I’m in love with you.

I’m just really jealous; of the way you hold her to your chest,

I’m jealous of the way you look at her,

I’m jealous of the way you touch her.

I’m jealous of the way she touches you.

For all I know, she could’ve been me.

But I am jealous Schroeder.

I’m jealous of the way you could just fuck her;

And sniff her hair.

 

Monday, October 29, 2018

Gentle

He breaks my heart to tear it apart,

but I know I’ll miss him….
Almost everyday of the week;
and on Mondays.
On golden afternoons.
Knowing I could never kiss his lips,
or feel up his smooth hair round his scalp.
I will never know what sweet kisses like his feel like;
or what his arms wrapped around my waist would be like melted around my waist and the feel of his warmth wrapped around my body in the smooth chisels of per say, his body.
I would like to kiss him.
he looks kissable and I want him.
He looks subtle; gentle and I like it.
The way he feels so Goddamned fucking gentle.
Be safe love. 
As long as I know you’re going to be alive and live long enough to see the days progress.
But unalike and loved for what you do for others; for society.
Come back home safely.
If they can’t love you;
They’re just jealous.

Swallowed Heart

I saw him but I didn’t know him.
But he knew me.
But when I looked to see him again,
He swallowed my heart
And he left me
As I woke up in a cold sweat;
In my lonely room….
As the birds outside my window left my room
 

Sunday, October 21, 2018

Gervaise

I didn’t know whether to start laughing or crying.
I was angry, frustrated, repulsed, confused and at the same time obnoxiously sad.
What was a family was no longer.
What is a family without people who actually gave a shit about you?
What is a relationship without the fruit of all that relies on love?
What is friendship without the sacrifice of being there?
As is to a relationship, where are the very culprits and feelings that embody one?
As we go on suffering; you find there is no light ate the end of your tunnel filled hope.
Hope makes you worsen the chances of life’s upbringing.
Love is the fiend that usurps us of any advantage whatsoever.
Care? Who bloody well gives a damn?
It is a never-ending façade of decades of hell.
It seems like abandonment the care that one was reckless.
Like a road you trample, walk over and spit upon.
Remorse….
No one to save you.
No shining light to find you.
You fall.
And then it hits you very hard.
No one was there except your fear of the unknown.
The only feeling left….
truth….
who will love you? who will not?
I was like a warden of my own jail.
A prisoner of my own cell.
And thus as far, as I have learned;
It is better to have sobbed silently and softly;
than to not sob at all and say you did not feel.
A perforation in the heart;
A perversion of the soul;
A betrayal from your neighbor\\\’s backyard;
Your infinity plussed by someone else;
The matter of your doubt fulfilled;
The shattering
of
a
heart.

Saturday, October 20, 2018

Missing

We may have missed each other in another life
And I think we knew it.
But I may have missed you
and if that isn’t the tragic thing about death it’s losing you….
but you see, losing you just was not worth it.
But the saddest truths lie in the past
And we keep missing.
 

Still

He’s jealous of the way I put my cigarette in my mouth,

And then he gets jealous of the way I put up the decorations lightly in his house.

I do believe he gets jealous of the way I wear my clothes on about everyday and how badly he’d like to become my clothes and how they suit me.

He gets jealous of the way I dance with other men at parties and he loves how I laugh whenever I see him.

I do believe though on some nights he’d still rather be with me alone and that he could recall me;

Still smiling at him when he is underneath a parade of stars and that I am still there cheering on him with them.

Thursday, October 18, 2018

The Reason I Fight

“Do you?”

He asked.

“Do you see me?”

“Yes.”

As I thought to myself. I told myself.

This is the reason why you fight wars. Him. He is the reason the war must be won. He is the one I will fight my battles for because he fights for me and he was the strongest warrior….

The Tsunami

My love you are the calm after the storm.

I cannot help but love you

but not as I love him.

I had to darling

Because without him

it felt empty.

He is the one I wanna wake up to.

Darling, you are my hurricane,

But he is the tsunami.

***

as I drown deeper into your waters

I am consumed with the words

“Do you want me”

And I will always reply

“Yes my love. I will still want you.”

As I take my last gulp of air.

Forcefully,

But

Willingly

Hurricanes and Storms

Your love blew like the strongest wind

Only to create the perfect storm.

But my greatest perhaps was him.

And

I

cannot

live

without

him

But little did I know

You created

A hurricane

Monday, October 15, 2018

The Reason

You are like my pulse.

You are the main artery to my bloodstream

The very reason I breathe.

You are the reason a million stars come out at night.

The very reason that they sparkle in the night sky.

You are the reason why I wake up to the sunlight in my face

The very reason why the breeze I feel during the days are so full of the strong wind that caresses my face.

You are my reason to live.

The reason why I get out of the hospital okay.

You’re the reason I have found a way to live my life.

You.

I want to breathe your hair like you’re my religion.

To keep kissing you like a slave kissing a God.

The Whore Part 2

My heart was falling apart as I was falling faster

I felt like I was on some cliff

Like life was on the verge of ripping my body in two.

I felt my heart pulsing.

A race against time

And heartache was my only master as I kept falling and tripping, tripping and falling

My hand dizzily waiting to get to yours

I was too late when I got to the end of the last line

I found the whore

Only to find out he was making love

To you

In my apartment.

On my bed.

But the truth only then is….

Who is the whore?

You or

I?

Monday, October 8, 2018

Advice On The Side To Get By

Life goes on and you should never mistake another person’s happiness for your own or let yourself die because someone else is happier. Making sacrifices is what life is about. What makes people afraid to step up is that they don’t know the true meaning of happiness or cruelty. I mean sacrifice your face to save your nose or sacrifice your nose to save your face. Well no one is first. All those firsts you’ve thought about someone or something like everyone else had already done them….Make priorities and get them straight. Don’t fucking twist them. Good people do not make promises and break them just because. You can never have a soulmate. You can have a spirit animal but not a soulmate. Because you already have a soul. A human being is a human being only when his reactions, response, responsibilities and actions are given the merit of human characteristics. A man’s inability to act on his own makes him incompetent and his inability to cope with the circumstances of what he did wrong makes him a complete coward and a failure to society. A human being doesn’t have circumstances meaning that in human nature they have to have credibility for what they’ve done to others whether they’re traitors, murderers, racist or evil. In other words you are what you make of yourself so make good choices.

Friday, October 5, 2018

The Whore

How can I love such a man when he is an angel of the darkness???….

A creature of the night????

Some reptilian whore?

A beast????

When he is too busy in time fucking me?

But I do love him but he is a man on fire.

Monday, October 1, 2018

Bella Mia

He gets romantic in front of me but not with other girls

In fact

He thinks I’m the most beautiful girl in the world and I cannot fathom what life would be like without him.

He calls me “beautiful girl” in Italian and he plays the violin to my heart passionately….

I tell him truly that he is my darling and he calls my name out in his sleep when I am not able to make it to him.

I love it when he calls me beautiful because he’s the only person who can make me feel like I am.

I love it when he calls me “Bella Mia.”

My only one, tell me you’ll love me.

Forever

Senses Working Overtime

You taste like tea; you smell like coffee and you and I think of each other on long rainy days.

When you’re not too busy you love being happy and you’re always dancing when it rains.

Your favorite colors are the color of my eyes because you believe in symbolism of the color of green leaves and blue skies.

Your laughter sounds like bubbles if that is how laughter looks.

Your voice is like music.

You are my muse and you make me weak.

I shiver when you touch me

At You

I like how the sun tints your black hair red.

The way you speak truth into being.

Your premonition of life encases so much to look at,

But your imagination runs wild.

You never mean to be politically correct and yet you never mean to be incorrect.

I like the way you kiss me and your smile makes me wanna keep kissing…..

You.

I love mostly your amber eyes.

Deep pools of dark brown hovering over me against the sun and the light of your heart beside my darkness.

You’re an innocent soul and I needn’t say more.

Moreover, don’t let me go.

Don’t let me steal your heart for I am waiting for you to steal mine…..

Eternally Searching

I’m stuck here and I’ve almost erased a whole bunch of names on this blog.

I almost erased them all because they are lost in my sea of hearts

But also because you; you are the one person that I’d write to.

The person I could feel good about and it is this;

I’m in love with you.

Would you tell me you will love me back?

I keep thinking that I will see you again.

Someday or be doomed to eternity to go on searching….

Eternally searching.

Sunday, September 30, 2018

Her Part 2

Now that you want me

You cannot have me back again

Because of them

Monday, September 24, 2018

The Pendulum

The clock keeps ticking

Unwritten time goes by

And soon so does your heart.

A moth flies against an old grandfather clock

And love is too late as I stare at the pendulum swinging into the darkness of the unknown void

The Empty House

A house once stood upon a dreary cold and dark hill

It was near the edge of damnation and now it is a wasteland full of books that were written in and some left open.

Books of my life and books I have read

Books full of regret

Books full of lost love

Books full of the things I had and had not done…..

A storm hit and now it lies foggy and unable to find.

I looked into the house before the fog had hit and found my books rotting in spite of all I had done

You were there and you were so angry that you threw one at me

You said finally you didn’t love me.

O how I wanted you.

O how I cherished your heart.

But you invaded my space and left my house with torn and battered books.

Leave me alone for my heart is an empty household full of nothingness

And now I will only remember what love and Spring was like

But then without these books I will forget

What love had felt like and how the seasons encased you.

And especially the gentle breeze that holds you to me

And I’ll be your memory…..

To forget.

An Open Book

Your mind is an open book

And every chapter; I would like to read.

But your mind tends to wander;

And your pages are gone with the wind.

And my love for you is gone away.

Now my mind tends to wander,

And I am just an open book that people write in and although the chapters are adventurous and exciting there was

No

Love

The Pathways To Your Soul

Show me the path to your soul because I love you and do not be shy or scared

Of the lonesome seas that long to hold you

And the seasons that long to embrace your pure heart and loving, loyal heart, body and soul….

Please give me the keys to your soul, the clues to your path-winding mind, and please break the walls you love to your heart.

Scars

I used to believe you were more beautiful than I

But beauty goes away so very quickly

And the pain does not stop for anyone.

Quickly like the painted tattoos on your body,

I ran to you but you didn’t show.

Who was I to you and who was I to think that you could love me without knowing the touch of my lips; my breath all over your body???

Quietly like the wind I felt I could not breathe and again that was it.

I couldn’t love you.

Like the painted tattoos all over my body

I was scarred

Forever

Thursday, September 20, 2018

The Dreamer

I’m tired of being so fucking weak. I used to think to myself that I didn’t care who you loved because deep down inside I thought you loved me.

But I’m just a dreamer who fell asleep and woke up on the wrong side of reality.

Some dreamer who just spoke of irrationality beyond my control.

And I guess things were never meant to last….

Wednesday, September 19, 2018

Darkness From Light

My love, you seek the darkness while I seek the light.

My lover,

We’ve only just become to begin as one.

You shine like the moonlight going deeper into the spaces of your lonely room only to dream.

I shining like the sun smile on your darkness and I say to you “fool!”

“Your darkness is what keeps you from dreaming because in reality you shine like the sun.”

But of course he told me,

“I seek the unknown. Dare to dream.”

“But of course I dream, but how will you ever see the darkness without light?”

“Whatever do you mean?”

He had asked.

“The light of the sun you see, it reflects the moonlight to light your way. In order to see darkness you must know the light. I have seen the ugliness in you. That is your darkness and I fall in love with you each and every time.”

Friday, September 14, 2018

Gone

As I always was

You will remember me

No matter how far

Because when I am gone; you

Won’t see me ever again

Dreams

He loved me the way nobody else did

And when he looked at me….

He felt he could do anything.

His heart was mine.

So were his thoughts.

The perverse way he’d wish to think of me lying next to him.

The way he wanted to think about me was what I’ve always thought about.

How he wished to hold me.

How life would go by slowly without me as he had looked out his window to my old home.

And he way he wrote

I love you

And there.

There was a boy I loved.

But that was just a dream.

And just knowing that you can forget all that in one hour of a second,

Reminds me.

It is a reminder that dreams are in your sleep.

The Sender

I loved you more than

you loved yourself but you could

not send your love back.

Wednesday, September 5, 2018

Monsters and Saints

“Are monsters troubled?”He asked me.

“Why should you ask dear?”

I asked my nephew.

“Because monsters eat people and by doing that they kill them!”

He was my little squeaker-mouse.

I hugged him and said.

“Do you know about saints?”

“Yeah.” He said.

“They’re the guys in the Bible.”

I pulled him to the side and told him quietly.

“Every saint had their troubles. Some were troubles they couldn’t confess to their own heart driven mad by society….”

Years after, my nephew never wanted to talk to me again.

I wrote him a letter.

I am now in the army.

But the people I killed were on another man’s orders.

That’s what makes a man a man, but surely the saints will hear me and pray for the time when God shall judge me.

Sunday, September 2, 2018

My Nourishment....

I do love you. I do. You nourish my soul and my heart forever; always.I think of you when I want the darkness, but remnants of your smiling face and sad eyes make my day the happier.

one day I hope you’ll propose to me….

one day….

Saturday, September 1, 2018

Monsters - A Haiku

I call all you loved

by God. You are all monsters;

But I am so too.

Friday, August 24, 2018

The Scarlet Letter

You’re the type of man that likes big words and loves the meaning of music.You are culturally inclined to be someone who is into every book and every time you read one it touches you so profoundly that in some ways, it makes you cry.

You love beautiful things and architecture….

You have a great ear for singing and you are selfless….

You have a big heart but you tend to tell the worst truths even when it hurts….

You love talent and you’d get excited over a Broadway musical….

You wish you could live life to the fullest but deep inside you think of the things most important to you.

You are in love….

but not with me….

If I could give you the world; it would be yours at the snap of my fingertips….

but yet; sullenly you type out your name and you forget that is horizontal to the first letter of your name….

….and I love you.

I do.

Dear M.S. (missing ship),

Your soul is beautiful…. But you’re so unsure of yourself because what you seek is not yourself, it is the cure to your afflictions, as a young boy you always thought you would be some mad man, but darling, your soul is beautiful and I want you to know that the answers you seek are in your mind and heart when they are both stimulated and work together.

you seek…..the other half of your soul….

Thursday, August 23, 2018

Beloved,

You fill my heart with joy when I suddenly feel your body closest to mine….

I am saddest when you are gone; although I know that it just isn’t forever….

My sweet caramel eyed man with a heart set of gold and stone…..

You make me dream of castles in the sky, and of dancing tulips in the wind on a hot Summer’s day.

with caramel skin….

Friday, August 17, 2018

Truth

I was a young girl in the prime of my youth. I used to think that stars were like seeds, only planted in the sky.

But this all changed because of you.

I saw you and I fell in love long after puberty’s end.

I knew that somehow it wouldn’t last this long. Looking at the stars on my father’s truck on top of the hood and wondering how they came to be in the midnight sky.

Now the daydream is over and now I’ve learned to let you go.

Now happinesses and infinite dreaming are seemingly on the other side.

But I was just a dreamer back then. And you wee too afraid to accept that reality. That truth was about you and me and that no one else could touch us. No matter how far apart….

But you just had to smash that truth and my love to pieces but you were not the only one who knew….

Tuesday, August 14, 2018

Life

Not everything is magical. Life cannot afford to be magical. Life is harder when it gets rough. The counterpart happens when somebody has the upper hand to make a dream come true. There will never be a dragon, or a prince to save you from that dragon. The fact of the matter is that life is about making priorities and decisions. Life is about waking up in the morning and deciding whether or not you want to make that cup of coffee and then wondering if you should put sugar or milk in there. A romanticized life has fluff, poetry and music and the reason why we would want these things is because we need reassurance that life is still beautifully interwoven in our thoughts for us to go on. Everyone is an artist that paints their own lives just as everyone is an open book or an author that is used to write upon. That is what life is all about.

Thursday, August 9, 2018

Dear M.S., (a.k.a missing ship)

I love the way your body talks to me

ready to embrace me with those sad, sleepy eyes

My sleepy love,

You needn’t say anything at all….

because in a way, I understand the things that you try to portray.

Whenever, if I can recall or be able to recall a time when I was a young lady,

I’ll tell you this, I have never believed in second sight or sixth sense.

And if you have the courage to propose to me.

I love you

I do

I do

I do….

Tainted Love

If love should ever be tainted

It should be tainted by you like the falling rain.

Love is the true backstabber

And you cannot always win the girl….

But in some ways, you will keep different parts of people in your heart.

Tuesday, August 7, 2018

Time

Time will go by

And I’ll be seeing you; missing you, loving you.

Even when words aren’t strong enough; I’d still thinking you more or less….

I will seek new love, but you would still be able to hurt me.

My love for you darling; unknown stays strong.

Time will go by.

My face is just an existence for you to reminisce of.

You will come to think about me as I will still be thinking about you.

And I’ll be seeing you; missing you, loving you.

I’ll still be right here waiting

For you always find a way to keep me right here in this place. To keep me right here waiting. Waiting for you.

Time will go by

I am constantly; consistent when in love and I will never forget you.

You are mine. There is always a way to find you.

And I’ll be seeing you; missing you, loving you.

I will take willingly my life to sand and dust.

But before that; tell me you do love me.

Time will go by

And I’ll be seeing you; missing you, loving you.

The Subtle Disappearance

I know that soon my face will disappear and sometimes; then….

You will think of me as you always had.

You’ll remember me and when I find you to protect; love you, and keep you in my arms, I will be there.

Although I may disappear from time to time, I will think of you and you will remember me once upon a time again

I’ll always come back. I’ll come back to you.

I know that soon my face will disappear and sometimes; then

I will miss you and your mischievous smile your honest eyes full of hope;

and full of moonlit nights and sunrises.

You will think of me as you always had.

I will think of you; wishing and hoping that you’ll see me one fine day.

I will wait for you forever whenever the sun sets and rises

I know that soon my face will disappear and sometimes; then….

I will look to the sunrise and the highest peaks of mountains that range across the border….

I will look beyond the deserts and I will look especially to the setting sun as it embraces my mere memory of the nearness of you….. Your presence.

You will think of me as you always have….

I will find you and I’ll always be there for sure; for a new tomorrow.

Because someday I may never come back…..

I know that soon my face will disappear and sometimes; then….

You will think of me as you always had.

Monday, August 6, 2018

The Golden Sun

For you and me, our love is like a golden sun

I will; I will keep on loving you; until the day I die….

It is something I will treasure in my heart forever.

I will love you forever and for always until my life is done

You are my sunshine and my moonlight all mixed into a low red moon for you are my thrill; my magic in the night that falls under the stars like a thief that stole my glimpse of my own sky

For you and me, our love is like a golden sun underneath by which we would endeavor.

I will not or ever stop looking for you; ever stop loving you until from me you run….

For my love; I love you….for my love is like the descending and ascending sun….. For you; I would let you breathe and die

I will; I will keep on loving you; until the day I die…. Please leave me never

You are my water which springeth forth life from the deepest parts of the desert sand and the devil’s shun

You are my number one when I am tired and everything’s done for I am quite shy

For you and me, our love is like a golden sun and I know I can love you better

you are my way to enlightenment even while under the gun

you are the moon that I look forward to after a hot summer’s day where I lie

I will; I will keep on loving you; until the day I die; in whatever we endeavor

For I will be your rock and your Avant Garde; I will always be there because I love you…. in other words, For you and me, our love is like a golden sun. I will; I will keep on loving you; until the day I die…. Baby, don’t leave me ever.

A Part Of Me

Your heart is light and your mind is free,

I love you for you a part of me….

I think of you day and night

I wish to be with you always whenever you’re with me.

for you see, my love for you is a hurricane waiting to be at ease until you say you will love me forever at sea

your heart is light and your mind is free at night

I will not take the chances of hurting you neither to harm you so I could be

for my love for you runs deeper than the sands and farther than the trench at sea

I love you for you are a part of me alright?

I love you for you are my desert rose which is uplifted to me

I will follow all your demands for my heart is at sea

your heart is light and your mind is free as a kite

Your love is like moonlight on a river while I drink my favorite sugared tea

for I am the one who seeks solace under your moonlit gaze over the waters but see?

I love you for you are a part of me as I turn over in the night for you see, I am the calm before the storm that claims to be for free; but my dear you are the hurricane, and I am lost at sea all of the day and all of the night only because your heart is light and your mind is free and I love you for you are a part of me

Liquid Onyx

Your eyes are like liquid onyx in their most purest form

and like the waters that were drunk by the Gods.

But darling, you and I are the perfect storm.

Your tender caramel skin reflects sweetness after the hurricanes when they start to form

Your chest like chiseled grooves from the same golden amber of the Gods

Your eyes are like liquid onyx in their most purest form

I will be loving you tenderly for I am the calm before I orgasm a storm

Like the blush of a petal that is thrown at the weddings of Gods

and like the waters that were drunk by the Gods that had brewed up every storm

I am willing to sacrifice love to wait for your arms so warm

To ponder you like honeyed rust shall get to metal at the odds

Your eyes are like liquid Sapphire in their most purest form….

And I swear it, I vow it that I will love you too like the gravity’s pull of the sun toward the earth for you see that only your eyes are like liquid onyx in their most purest form

I love you, but not in the way that most women will, for you love me not in the way most men truly would and like the waters that were drunk by the Gods….

and like the waters that were drunk by the Gods that brewed every storm

Tender Silent Sigh

Forgive me for loving you my darling,

But your silent sighs are tender.

I love you but your love for me has been giving me the starting

Your lips are too slender like a rose to its true calling

Your caramel skin too soft and yet warm and tender

Forgive me for loving you my darling….

Like all eyes do I only have eyes for you and what you keep doing

Because I haven’t confessed love and although I do confess it there will be nothing left of the sort to occur

But your silent sighs are tender and evoke all my being

I know of nothing but to love and vow to protect you till my dying days, but to you my mind is a play thing

Till I am blackened and blued within the times that with you I shall court around my quarter

Forgive me for loving you my darling. Do not go gentle into that good night I am quoting. For you I ventured forth; for you are my rock for a starter, but your silent sighs are tender and you know how I am feeling and I love you with all I am with what I had been writing

But love me again and you and I will never be able to be a loner.

Forgive me for loving you my darling

But your silent sighs are tender and I am willing to give to you all of my being.

Friday, August 3, 2018

A Fairytale Called Life

She was living alone in some fairytale

For you see,

She waited to see if Prince Charming would come to get her.

She waited and waited,

But what she didn’t realize was that princes were into women that slayed their own dragons

And those who were not afraid to take risks and kiss frogs….

Sunday, July 29, 2018

The Heart

 

My second attempt at a villanelle….

 

 

Within my heart there is you

Even though you are gone

This time you left me with nowhere to go and nothing much to say and do.

 

 

From the empty pieces of my tainted heart and the vison of your view.

I think of you forever and from time to time I say this in reassurance and there is you and I feel like a con.

Because I needed your tragedy for this work of art but I do love you yes I do

 

 

I never did intend to use you

I lost you now love, as the many far and few and now you’re long gone

And now I fear there’s nothing I can do but write this song to you.

 

 

And now I am in love with a mere thought of only and just only you

I write about the loved and the lost and take your love and try to make it look right from wrong.

Hoping that I will get caught by your arms again and you.

 

 

I love you….I love you…

Be safe and do not do wrong

because darling; I do.

 

 

Hoping you will come and rescue me from myself too

Hoping someday you will find me in your heart and find my song.

Hoping you did not put me on a shelf and put me in your heart like you used to

Hoping for a new and better start; a better start within you.



Magic

A Haiku – A Haiku is a Japnese form of poetry with five to seven to five syllables in each line….

Here I am writing

Hoping that magic

In my words will touch your heart.