The Heart

 

My second attempt at a villanelle….

 

 

Within my heart there is you

Even though you are gone

This time you left me with nowhere to go and nothing much to say and do.

 

 

From the empty pieces of my tainted heart and the vison of your view.

I think of you forever and from time to time I say this in reassurance and there is you and I feel like a con.

Because I needed your tragedy for this work of art but I do love you yes I do

 

 

I never did intend to use you

I lost you now love, as the many far and few and now you’re long gone

And now I fear there’s nothing I can do but write this song to you.

 

 

And now I am in love with a mere thought of only and just only you

I write about the loved and the lost and take your love and try to make it look right from wrong.

Hoping that I will get caught by your arms again and you.

 

 

I love you….I love you…

Be safe and do not do wrong

because darling; I do.

 

 

Hoping you will come and rescue me from myself too

Hoping someday you will find me in your heart and find my song.

Hoping you did not put me on a shelf and put me in your heart like you used to

Hoping for a new and better start; a better start within you.

Magic

A Haiku – A Haiku is a Japnese form of poetry with five to seven to five syllables in each line….

Here I am writing

Hoping that magic

In my words will touch your heart.

No Matter....

A Tanka- A Tanka is another form of Japanese poetry that consists of five to seven to five to seven to seven syllables in each line.

Tonight I cannot

Stop thinking about you now

Because you found me

I can’t stop thinking you will

Always love me no matter….

All Over Again Part Two

A Haiku – A Haiku is a Japnese form of poetry with five to seven to five syllables in each line….

I thought that loving

Was dangerous for you

I found you again

All Over Again

A Tanka- A Tanka is another form of Japanese poetry that consists of five to seven to five to seven to seven syllables in each line.

I left you because

I thought you would have been safe

And now I’m falling

In love with you all over

Again with stars in your eyes.

Falling In Love

A Tanka- A Tanka is another form of Japanese poetry that consists of five to seven to five to seven to seven syllables in each line.

There was heartbreak where

I come from and my heart had

Suddenly revolved

Around your heart and I had

Come to fall in love with you.

The Locket Heart

A Tanka- A Tanka is another form of Japanese poetry that consists of five to seven to five to seven to seven syllables in each line.

I left my heart in

Locked in yours for you to find

Deep inside your heart

But you had not found me yet

Because I’m forever gone….

Ghosts

A Haiku – A Haiku is a Japanese form of poetry with five to seven to five syllables in each line….

I will be watching you

Waiting as your silent love

But I’m just a ghost

In The Pale Moonlight

A Haiku – A Haiku is a Japnese form of poetry with five to seven to five syllables in each line….

I left my heart

Belonging only to you

In the pale moonlight

Summer & You

A Haiku – A Haiku is a Japanese form of poetry with five to seven to five syllables in each line….

When I remember

Summer I start to think of

Loving only you

Freaks and Ghouls

A Haiku – A Haiku is a Japanese form of poetry with five to seven to five syllables in each line….

There is much beauty

In the night where all of the

freaks and ghouls come out.

The Night's Magic

A Haiku – A Haiku is a Japanese form of poetry with five to seven to five syllables in each line….

I will wait until

the night’s magic brings me back….

So I could love you….

Stars

I saw stars in him.

But they’re not the same stars I see with you.

You came into my life.

And now I have to bury the past with you….

There was pain in love, and love in pain.

I knew someday he’d leave me on earth to rot,

But still,

Stars would dim without you,

And the world in the worst way would still go round.

Compassion

They say the greatest killers are either writers, or lovers.

Mostly none are ever loved….

Even in a lonely world,

there is such a thing as human compassion…..

You forget that when you knew there was no human compassion;

you loved me anyway.

That would have been my dream….

When no one would love me at my worst;

at least someone to love me.

So I go out into the world and fall in love almost everyday….

and I swear to God that I will be loyal.

to the day I die…..

I hope you’ll find someone who will love you right

cause I guess I don’t have the time….

Dear ....

Dear …..

I want to show you the world.

I want to love you and cherish your soul.

I want to love you.

And as much as i love your physical appearence,

I also love having you around.

If I could give up the world and be with you so be it….

But to give you the world, I would do it….

Dear ……

I find myself daydreaming and thinking about you….

I think about you everyday

and there isn’t a day where I do not wonder about you;

A day where I do not wonder where you’re at and wonder what you are doing now.

Dear ……

I thought about you today and there were butterflies in the parking lot where we both go to college at.

I thought of the butterflies and lazily, I drifted off into thoughts of you.

I cannot live without you. If I had to choose between a model, an actor, a singer, or even a royal prince,

I cannot leave you for purposes unknown.

The conclusion is this….

I cannot;

Could never live without you because in conclusion;

you’re the one I have to have

you’re the only one who can move me like that;

the one person I care about and the one person

I

Love….

Darling, it would still

be

you….

My Butterfly

He is so sweet and innocent

Though he may not be the person he wants to be,

He’s everything perfect under the sun and moon to me.

He makes up my stars and my whole entire universe….

He gives me life and he smiles at me and laughs with me when I need it.

For some reason, he is always there.

He has the fragrance of clovers in spring;

He goes through great lengths for love and he wins me over that way….

I love every piece of him and every part of his soul, heart and everything he does….

He makes me feel strong.

He is my Achilles heel.

Everybody loves him and yet he gives so much.

Easily hurt by words, I praise him because he is so much more than that.

He is strong.

He is my magick;

He is my sun in Spring.

He flies away soaring high;

my dear you are my

butterfly….

Anytime....

Fate fosters destiny,

I was destined to live a life alone in solitude…..

but here I am living a life without you….

I didn’t know solitude till I met you.

You lust hungrily and look for me in many places

But you know you can have me anytime…..

Profound Serial Killer Quotes

1. I believe that the only way to reform people is to kill em. -Carl Panzram
2. “I was born with the devil in me. I could not help the fact that I was a murderer, no more than the poet can help the inspiration to sing…I was born with the evil one standing as my sponsor beside the bed where I was ushered into the world, and he has been with me since.” H. H. Holmes
3. Revelations 9:2 – “They have as king over them, the angel of the Abyss. A star fallen from heaven to earth, he opened the shaft of the bottomless pit, and from the shaft rose smoke like that of a great furnace, and the sun and the air were darkened…”-Anonymous

Wait For Life

And he and she finally knew it.

They were two star-crossed lovers….

He’d wait till forever for her to grow.

Wait for the innocence of a child to blossom.

He loved her secretly with all his soul

His heart and his head.

It seemed illogical to leave her side.

Because in reality they had known each other in many lifetimes.

And if he probed that he couldn’t have loved her better

Then he would be betraying his own soul

For he dares not confess them….

If only he knew not to confess such thoughts,

He’d never confess them.

Wait darling;

For life….

to come and change you

Until you bloom.

Alive

And he was alive again….

Only differently.

But he and I….

We cherished eachother

Every moment spent with him was like another adventure, but he knew better about life.

Yes.

I would damn myself and soul to hell for him.

He and I.

We cherish youth.

I giggle at the start of the mere thought.

Winter

In the harsh winter of my life,

I found you.

In my world I never thought that I would never be able to live without love;

Without you.

And I cannot stand living without your love.

I cannot live knowing you’re not alive;

I just want you to know I long to love you and my heart never really wanders with men like you.

Because in every man, I look for you.

Because I look forward to seeing you walk around even when you’re walking away from me.

Pure Fire

You’re crazy about me and you’re always fighting for me always for most of the time….

You’re the best I’ve ever met….

I always keep thinking about how I am just this: The luckiest girl in the world to love you.

I know you want me darling;

secrets I dare not confess to my own soul;

to the coldest peaks of my icy heart….

I think you long for me to look at you.

Because baby; I almost always do….

I also think you’d like to kiss me

I always keep dreaming that I am making love to you

and in my dreams; you dream of making love to me too.

and in my heart of secrets with keys locked in my soul;

I hear your voice and your silent sighs as tensions rise.

But my love it is not tension;

that my love is

pure

fire.

Fire and Light

You bring light into my life like the sun hasn’t shined on me for the longest time.You bring me love in the worst scenarios like fire to wood.

You burn me and you burn my heart into a riveting flame.

You are the only thing worth loving

and I treasure you for that.

I cherish you, but do you think the same of me?

Your passion is spreading like a wildfire and I hope everyone knows just how wonderful you truly are.

You are my wonder;

a treasure I’ve longed for searching throughout the darkness.

your words are like melting lava

like the dying embers of a candle lit flame

your eyes are like the darkness of the universe and in them;

when I stare at them they tend to brighten and it makes you look like you have stars in your eyes….

My sight grows dim but then I see your face clearly, like I and you are the only ones in the room.

you are like the fire to my candles and your face lights up the universe and the light that shines like the sun comes into my room and I am again reminiscent of your face in the light of everything in my room under the sun.

Reasons

You are my heaven and you are my hell

And I love loving you….

you are my reason to breathe

and when I hear your name; I think of all the possibilities we could’ve had and I think of your smile, your face and your laughter.

and I think of all the reasons to live….

and of all the reasons to survive.

Don’t go….

Don’t go….

A World of Wonder

He’s the only one I wonder about at night now,

I wonder what he thinks about the skies, stars and planets.

He is my celestial heart; my everything referred to as love.

He thinks often about where I go;

So I stay in so he doesn’t have to wonder.

My dear heart,

I can’t stand to be away from you as the time goes by ever so slowly.

He is my heart.

He makes sure I am safe.

I wonder sometimes what his dreams are like; if so love if I should dare to ask….

Do you ever dream of me in your fantasies my love?

Do you think of me when I’m not around???

You are my wonderland; my dear

You are my world of wonder.

The Feeling (Quantum Physics)

This gets philosophical in a transient way

but to whomever knows this and you know very damn well who you are,

that I am getting that you are trying to reach me to tell you that you’re in love with me….

In other words; I have found someone;

someone who makes me laugh and fills my heart with joy at the mere sight of his being.

When I was deteriorating alone, he suddenly came up and made me feel lighter;

my weight started to feel like the heavy pit in my stomach had been levered.

and now I cannot stand a world without him….

to be philosophically poetic is to be a man….

to be a woman is to be poetically philosophical….

The idea that quantum physics without having to be touched by that very same person gives me butterflies;

and yes dove;

I’d still write about you but I beg you to reconsider….

Reconsider that happiness may not be with me.

Second guess me if you must….

Within hi is the final frontier of things.

I have all my questions answered.

I feel like I already have all the knowledge in the world….

please dove;

reconsider….

Everyone’s love is different.

It depends on how you accept it.

Yes love is subjective to anybody, but still dove;

reconsider….

that is the idea of physics; the trick in quantum is the emotion we are feeling thus making the illusion that love could save us all comes true.

it is philosophy

it is poetry….He touches me and brings magic into my life;

my world;

and he makes me feel confident….

Stay

I will be your light when it turns dark

I will love you at your darkest;

enshrouding you with my light and I swear to god that I will love you with all my heart and keep you warm in the cold

Stay with me….

Please stay with me….

I love you

I love you…..

stay alive for me….

The Sculptured Heart

Just knowing that you could make me happy;

That you will be my crying shoulder

That I will reciprocate the same love that befits you….

Just knowing that you can pleasure me as you enter my body

makes me uncouth inside

You give me butterflies in my stomach

You pleasure me more than anybody else and you take my heart and sculpt it into something beautiful;

in other words;

you know how to make my heart melt and you know how to make me feel like a whole sculpture from the shattered pieces of my heart….

and put an arrow in it…..

My Hurricane

He goes after women who are like hurricanes ruining everything in sight….

But what does he really look after in those almond eyes???

He seeks solitude in the seas and he is a shipwrecked heart.

Willfully but like a fish, he takes solitude in learning and amongst other things , the science of how chemicals and other things work whether the sciences of learned men diminish or not….

he is not nervous, he is overprotective over the things he has learned to cherish; things worth keeping and he loves with all his heart like a bubble ready to burst and then swims away in playful banter…..

He may seem shallow but he always tells the truth…..

But what is shallow?

It is shallow to think that he is

for what is shallow to the eyes are deeper than the seas….

His shallowness is like a lake close up atfirst sight and then deeper as you dive in….

You love witht he frayed black hair are my search for meaning in this life….

You are nature….

My very own personal storm….

Dragons and Beasts

He was always haunted by the darkness

His nostalgic past was a trifle of hate for most but to poke a bit of fun like a sprite; he was always nonchalant.

Become the dragon my son; not the one who is slaying it.

He is beautiful and yet very creative when he expresses himself and immerses himself into the philosophy of books and what they mean to him.

But maybe it’s wishful thinking that all men are philosophical and innocent.

But can he love after the darkness is replenished with light against his caramel skin and wide eyes???

Become the dragon my son.

Forbidden Fruit

He was always a polite boy as I recall him….

Will he always be that same polite boy with the sweet smile and gifted tongue of verse?

His refusal to let go and be sweet owns up to his nobility and strength as a young man….

as I recall the shy boy that he was, he’d always defend me no matter what the cause;

no matter what road I take….

He;

he will always be there;

my light; comforting and guiding me.

Tasting forbidden pleasures at the light of the full moon….

With black hair as autumn leaves fall onto the ground; and the deepest; most darkest eyes….

You Make My Sun Rise....

You make my sun rise;

my moon shine,

and all my constellations glitter in the night.

you make my heart pound

and you help me sleep softly into the night.

you make every unhappy situation happy

You make the stars go up,

you make my moon and stars and my sun come up

and you fill my heart with joy.

you make my skies blue,

and you make everything in every bad situation good.

You make me happy.

You strike the angels as jealous; both you and I

you keep me sacred in your heart and you blush when I come around

You make my self deterioration become less.

Your face alone makes me smile

and the sound of your gushing voice makes me laugh

you’re a charmer and I like a bee to honey, fall for your charms….

You keep me breathing;

your smile is all i look forward to

even the mere thought of you being alive keeps me going

to be alive

to breathe

you make my sun rise….

Wonderful....

I swear to God, you are the only flower floating in the waters of black

You are white against black;

The only thing that makes sense amongst the white noise….

The only thing beautiful I see against all this black water.

I am amazed at how far you’ve gotten.

And you are beautiful amongst a sky full of stars.

You are amazing and don’t ever let anyone think otherwise because they’re just jealous.

even if they’re too busy not celebrating you,

I’d celebrate the fact that the light in your eyes came into focus

because you’re my only reason to breathe….

and baby, you’re wonderful….

A Fairytale Come True

When you ask me why I listen to classic jazz;

well because,

I am waiting for love that will never happen.

So when I put on Frank Sinatra or Tony Bennet and I go off about my life,

Don’t get mad because

that’s life….

Fairytales don’t come true.

Neither does love.

And the problem is this;

You were my dragon….

I am still slaying dragons up to this very day. Where the princess really is trying to rescue the prince from all these sorcerers, magicians, and most of all; evil witches and dragons….

From the naggers, wolves and thieves.

This time, Red Riding hood’s family got eaten by wolves,

and this time,

Cinderella was intoxicated as she dreamt of her fairy tale midnight fantasies;

Alice never had a wonderland as she dreamt of a better life with friends who made them her family;

she died in it intoxicatingly.

Snow White missed out on life just like Sleeping Beauty and no one kissed them because they were too fragile to kiss or something;

plus evidently they were never found in the woods.

No one in reality fought for them….

As each one fought to wake up from reality; all they did was conquer dragons; evil witches, sorcerers, magicians and dragons….

in their sleep.

So when you ask me why I listen to classic jazz;

well because,

I am waiting for love that will never happen.

So when I put on Frank Sinatra or Tony Bennet and I go off about my life,

Don’t get mad because

that’s life….

it’s going nowhere

plus; it’s a deteriorating black hole down a lonely highway that never ends….

so if you ride with me,

I am certain you will know;

what a broken heart is….

The Suffering

Can you feel me when you feel the tops of the ice???

I am down there below drowning …..

waiting for someone to save me….

But you won’t know it….

My soul suffers.

My heart suffers.

For you….I’ve loved beforehand

And my being is because of you.

Because I’ve loved you.

But you’ll never

You’ll

Never

Ever

Love

Me.

Daddy’s Boots

You left me in the cold

You left me in the winter cold;

At the peak of my adulthood.

I never really had a chance to look at my life because I was always busy and; hey it happens….

You left me

Even when I was a child.

I was alone.

I never had much of a childhood

No one.

I had no one.

Daddy left me as a young child and so did mama.

He used to call me son despite the fact that I was a very young girl.

I wasn’t happy just knowing that you left me too

Like everyone else; you’d just push me away

To the snow and down the cold pit to fall to the ground.

You left me like daddy and mama.

With mama’s pictures and daddy’s boots to wear to war

Now I look at them and daddy’s boots and mama’s pictures

Now….

Ever since you told me to get out and go away….

Know.

I will love you….

Always.

And goddamn you

Know that I’ll be out there in the cold….

Waiting for the sun to kiss you.

for the sun;

for you to make me feel warm again….

The Ghost of You

I hope you know that I do love you

And when I leave I think about you

Whether it’s overseas or on a jet fighter.

I want you to know I’ll come home.

I swear I’ll come home to you….

Like I always do

Like I always have

Even when you’re sleeping.

I’m always constantly watching over you

And if you ask me why I love you so much

Know that I’m sorry

But that sorry may come late and sometimes I may never come….

But for the ghost of you, that’s what I fight for

I fight for you

know that even shooting stars have the right to fall sometime too….

Imaginings Of A Young Girl

After I’m doneAfter all that is said and done,

I cry

Because I was never really wanted.

I hope you realize that I love you and that you’ll soon love me back too;

and then I can go back to imagining that you’d want me too.

Satisfying The Hurting

I love the way your shadow holds me on my body

I love the way your skin is smoothly chiseled with the grooves steadily holding me.

I love the way everything I see lies within your face.

I love the way your smell lingers on my pillows but in spite of all I’ve been doing,

I hope I haunt you in your sleep.

I hope to celebrate your death and smile at your deathbed

So when they ask who killed you

I’ll smile and gladly say it was your stupidity; and I’ll then say

It

Was

Me.

And maybe just to satisfy my hunger; drink your blood.

Just to satisfy the hurting

Of all the lives you took….

The Phoenix

Don’t listen to their stupid shit because you.

You are wonderful.

You make this world wonderful

And I love exactly that about you.

That would be why you’re my reason to breathe and keep living

Because you don’t give up and you only get tougher

and no matter how broken you are; your heart will keep getting warmer and you’ll look beautifully replenished every time.

You’re my warm-hearted Phoenix who just rises up from he ashes;

No matter what happens to you.