Sweetie Pie

You’re not very sound minded and I love you.

And I am not letting you go again…..

When I’m in your arms, your warmth spreads all the way from my head to my toes.

When I’m in your eyes, your depth never really surpasses my sight,

but when I look at you, my world comes crashing down into your depths until it is time for you to take cover.

I’m so in love with you and my heart pounds every time I feel your warmth intertwining against mine into a cold dark crevice where you put light into my world.

You follow no one’s expectations, and you know exactly how to keep your promises.

Say you love me.

Say you do.

‘Cause you’re my sweetie-pie and I love you

I love you

I love you with all my heart.

and I will always love you…

my sweetie pie

10 of Swords - Tarot Card of The Day - February 26th, 2020

MENTAL ASPECT

A trust of instincts; Getting a better mindset over everything. the answer to all questions. a problem solved in love, and in war.

PHYSICAL ASPECT

Put your feelings to your fists. Fights are heating up. Make sure you know who it is that you are fighting with. Sometimes your friends are not your true friends because of certain situations.

AESTHETIC ASPECT

Violence; betrayal; storms; hurricanes and a wave of emotions crashing over or overlapping one another.

SPIRITUAL ASPECT

Hurt and deceit. Despite all this; the strength to endure.

REFLECTIONS

Endure to the end. If you’re going through hell; keep going as someone famous once quoted.

2 of Swords – TAROT CARD OF THE DAY – February 25th, 2020

2 of Swords – Tarot Card of The Day – February 25th 2020

MENTAL ASPECT

Feelings of opposition; figuratively, the sun is jealous of the moon. Your friends in particular are very curious and are usually not. DO NOT trust them at all. Not a day to tell secrets with your best friend. May be a bad day for your mental health. Stay cool, calm and collected; the day will go by very fast.

PHYSICAL ASPECT

Not a good day to worry. Get rest after college classes or work.

AESTHETIC ASPECT

The rebel and the wild one; the sun and the moon; opposites

SPIRITUAL ASPECT

An unveiling of different worlds and oppositions to deal with. More bullshit given than none.

REFLECTIONS

Reflect on the things that you are saying. Think about what needs to be done after you had said them. What is your back-up plan with major and minor setbacks.

The Late Valentine

I loved you.

I kept loving you until my eyes were swollen, with my fast-paced breathing and my constant beating heart beneath a sweaty shirt that smelled much like the lab you used to work in.

I loved you.

The way you’d cradle your cigarette around your finger nestled in your chair looking out at a silhouette of some shadow that was once your past.

I get that you no longer think about it and that all your pictures of me are ruined.

You shatter my heart as my door creaks open in the middle of the night as it opens to the soft pale moon.

Congratulations to me.

I am in the realm where you have painted the stars and the galaxies that have given birth to their flesh.

Once again I am somehow in your world.

I look up and wonder, if I could have had to paint like that I would have made sure that our stars were to cross in the pathways of a predestined fate.

I would have won and not her.

Still somewhere in my mind, I’m the one making love to you with tender sighs;

I’m the one who captured your eyes, who stole your heart, who fulfilled your destiny and sealed your fate.

Well, happy crappy Valentines’.

I am too late.

I have never believed in anything.

In anything this nihilistic world has to offer.

I’ve told you time and time again.

I dream of you in colors that don’t exist,

they come as you;

like electric lightning.

I have never believed in a God.

Yet there you stand….

so perfectly….

9 of Pentacles – TAROT CARD OF THE DAY – February 19th, 2020

9 of Pentacles – TAROT CARD OF THE DAY – February 19th, 2020

MENTAL ASPECT

No need to worry. Justice is served for everyone. A good day for those who are seeking justice and help.

PHYSICAL ASPECT

A good time to get up, grow up and do the right thing.

AESTHETIC ASPECT

a bad day for liars. Also a bad day for bigots and for blasphemy.

SPIRITUAL ASPECT

decisions that are meant for the better should be delved into. Maybe they were bad and maybe they were good.

REFLECTIONS

Now is a time to look forward and reciprocate about certain emotions and decisions we make for ourselves and for others.

The Star – TAROT CARD OF THE DAY – February 18th, 2020

The Star – TAROT CARD OF THE DAY – February 18th, 2020

MENTAL ASPECT

Wishful thinking. Most likely to follow one’s insights. Careful planning. Trickery. Vs. truth

PHYSICAL ASPECT the truth is upon us. reap what you sow

AESTHETIC ASPECT endurance finding a light the truth

SPIRITUAL ASPECT good decisions looking into a situation deeper than before everything coming together like a puzzle. Pieces sewn. Not a psychic aspect.

REFLECTIONS Now is a time to look and delve into the aspect of truths. Who is lying and who is not.

Ghost-Lover

My lover,

It has been years.

Yet I can still feel the warm touch of your mouth; your kisses sweet;

For I can still feel you inside me; near me; within my soul.

Our souls still intertwined;

There’s no other ghost I would rather dance with than you.

Yes, no other person I shall love more than you.

For you are still in me and I in you.

Tonight we shall be together for your ghost resides in my presence nearest my heart;

Forever and ever.

And tonight my lover,

your ghost dances with me.

A Man Without Purpose

The pain was unconquerable.

You made me really hate you a lot.

You could have driven me crazy and now I serve no purpose in life.

Can you see me?

Can you? Do you remember me?

Didn’t you think you’d have an impact on my life?

Happy Valentines Day.

To a man who drove my dreams away.

A man who couldn’t love. Who ruined the child within.

Can you feel?

Do you love?

There was nothing I could do to get out of my rotting hell.

My straight jacket in a four cornered wall. Where I was scared as fuck.

That was the epitome of insanity.

Next a checkup in the ward forever sitting.

Silently.

In a grave yard of girls you’ve broken with arrows in their hearts.

Now I am you.

A loser.

A man without purpose.

But to love you….

Forevermore enslaved

to you.

Happy Valentines loser.

I’d go crazy over and over again.

For you.

Sadness

It was hard to explain this sort of sadness because it hurt so much.

It hurt to the point where no one could break her walls and she was left empty; alone in a shell.

She couldn’t breathe because she felt so intoxicated.

She felt she had no space and couldn’t be with him.

So she didn’t flee like every girl did, she just walked out into the cold.

Hoping for what comfort was defined as.

She hoped to have that kind of life one day.

To be kissed and in someone’s arms.

To be safe in someone’s heart and cradled into someone’s soul.

To be in someone’s heart meant to be in someone’s eyes.

To be in someone’s soul meant to be stimulated in someone’s mind.

To have time for someone like her who did not have time for anyone else.

And that’s how I feel like.

When

You’re

Gone…..

A Life Update #2

This is a forum on my class’s Human Biology website that I thought I would like to share. Just another life update since we’re on chapter 13 of Learning and Memory. I’m an English major, but I decided to fulfill my prerequisites last since I only found out two years ago that I actually have prerequisites and classes to fulfill. Have fun reading!!!

1. What has prepared you to think about the way you think?
Before I first started this class, I took critical thinking which to my success helped me a lot during the semester to think cognitively and reflect on my abilities to think which of course is metacognition. Through what I understand we have the ability to cognitively think and do what is against the grain meaning question everything and go outside normal thinking but to always think in a respective manner. So, in a way, college has helped me think outside the grain or to think outside of the box. Another example was when I was a young girl, I used to play word games with my mother along with the building blocks she and my father had gotten for me. It helped me to process and to think creatively. So, as I grew older, I reflected more on school and my performance in my classes got better and better until I got my first scrabble set which made me such a good English major. I am an accomplished student and I have to say I have gotten this far and now I have a whole bunch of word app and thinking games on my iphone, which also help me to think cognitively. As for my first Scrabble sets, she and my father supported me by giving me thinking games. My mother also taught me to play cards and as a young woman in her teens I was always the smart one besides my brothers in my family so when I mentioned the fact that I wanted to go to college they surprised me and sent me here.

2. Are you comfortable taking time to reflect on yourself on a daily, weekly, monthly, or yearly basis?
I reflect on a weekly basis and sometimes I wish I could reflect on myself at least almost every day if I was not so busy juggling with college and life. Soon I will be juggling with college, life and work as I am headed towards my graduate studies. I think the best part of reflection is the calm and the peace that flows through my mind as I reflect. I lived a pretty good life and I used to reflect by owning a diary of my thoughts. I would write personal letters to myself to encourage me to do my best when my parents were not around.

3. If this isn\\\’t something you do at any regular interval, what are the obstacles to this?
The obstacles to stop reflecting are the fact that in metacognition, the mind feels trapped by certain stimuli which are outside factors meaning the mind is not free to think or indulge in creativity and certain factors like that are friends and their peer pressure which is unhealthy for the brain and also a factor of unhealthy mental stimuli such as bad habits and traits that are picked up from other people. As I see it, they create a barrier that is not metacognition because of the way they think. When we Follow what we think is morale in life we are living up to others’ standards and instead of being mindful, we become mindless. It’s like racism. When we think of someone as an ugly color of skin, we are not thinking outside the box because this person actually matters in life, but we do not see it that way because we are so caught up using racist language in our world that we do not have time to think cognitively about the good traits of that specific color or creed and where they come from therefore, cognitive thinking gives you a locus of respect.

4. What can you do to be more reflective? And what are you willing to do?
To be more reflective I reflect on my life and how the world is doing and how it relates to my life on Guam. So, I comment sometimes on digital media on what I think is wrong and praise what I think is right by reflecting on my values and by what I, myself support. I am willing to be more involved in what I believe in and make my opinions heard and reflect on how to be more open-minded and pay attention to details.

5. Discuss two things you have learned about the brain from the videos and content from this Chapter thus far.
Two things I have learned from the videos and the chapter was that the hippocampus with anti-depressants can make new brain cells with their help and that the brain has many functions in its different parts. What I’ve learned from this chapter is that the sympathetic side of the brain has the sensory skills we need to survive and the parasympathetic halve of the brain relates to maintaining homeostasis.