Always....

Dedicated to Michaela and Josh including Gugin. Thank you for coloring up my life and also for saving it….

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We were so young.

What were we thinking to take such things for granted as of the innocent beauty of youth?

Who were we to grow up and forget?

Did we forget who we were for fuck’s sake?

We were the dreamers only to become the greatest pretenders of all,

We were dreamers living in a fairytale believable to think humanity’s story would take place on our sides.

Always….

We didn’t have a care in the world and life was rainbows over mountains with butterflies, stars behind us with no absolutes.

No meaning.

But they mean something now.

It was the birds and the bees then flowers and trees blossoming into a rare fruit.

We are now the grandest most greatest pretenders and we loved each other. Even after all these years, becoming who we are today.

Always….

A lover and best friend.

Tarot Card of The Month - June 2020

Seven of Swords, 4 of Pentacles, 5 of Cups, The world

Using an oracle and tarot deck….

Seven of swords indicates that you are being looked at through different lenses. It is almost like everyone knows you and your next move. There are many enemies before you so you are taking constant vigilance. From April, you are keeping certain secrets from your friends. Just as many of your friends are keeping secrets from you too, and it has to deal with your love life and the life of your lover’s.

Four of Pentacles asserts that the secret life of yourself and your lover’s is ready to resurface. Everything is fine at home so do not turn away from everything that you are trying to move on to. Do not let your worries spoil your dreams or your hushed relationships. You may seem depressed because of the secrets your friends are keeping but keep going on.

Five of Cups indicates that there are many rumors afoot and that you are just not going to have that bullshit in your life. It may be about your past or someone you love’s past life. But this time it is about you and your decisions in life and in love.

The world indicates that everything you want this month is coming up to a bigger and greater plan. So at the end of the month whoever you have pushed away will not need to compromise with you or even bother you this month and for the rest of your life. Whoever you push away is your decision. Who you want in your life, in other words, What you need in your life will shortly appear in your love life and in your family and your relationships and friendships. What the universe is trying to say is that you must let go of your guilt and your self-forgiveness will show and become the attractive side of you. It also says to break free of what people are saying and forgive yourself for believing them.

Tarot Reading of The Month - May 2020

8 of Cups, 6 of Pentacles, Queen of Pentacles, The Hanged Man

Using an oracle and tarot deck

Eight cups in May means you will be falling madly in love with this friend from last month and things will be even and everything will be alright and ready to go. You are almost bound for the binding of a new romance but there is a rocky way through the waters ahead judging by the card reading at the beginning of the month. it is something about them that may benefit you in the future, but it may also bring rocky circumstances.

Six pentacles indicates that the world and the universe; life in you current state as we know it is almost complete. Six pentacles indicates the nourishment of hard times ahead and the rocky clutteredness of your confines. You may be going through a rough time with your friends when trying to exploit information or clues abut the person you are madly in love with or looking for. Your friends will probably be women who think they know what’s good for you when it is in private, vital for you to know about this person.

The queen of pentacles indicates a mysterious woman who shall appear to you this month with bad news in finance is coming, but do not despair for she is also there to guide you and to help you. She has been trying to get a hold of you, or it could be another friend who will mislead from your track and give you information about the woman you are looking for. If you are a female and in search of love, do not proceed which you will do to tell anybody else about your lover, because another woman may come to you and trick you or lie to you about your love life.

The Hanged Man may cause you some trouble because of something you have said or failed to do. Somebody is lying to you and soon what may happen to them may become pandemonium and panic to you. Of course, your close friend may be your relative and you two might get into big trouble by the end of the month. What the universe is trying to say in this year, 2020 of April is that sometimes breaking free of patterns, beliefs and routines is a good thing this month for the sake of your health and to maintain healthy relationships. At the end of the month, expect a miracle to happen in May.

Tarot Reading of The Month - April 2020

Two of Cups; The Empress, The Lovers; Ten of Wands

Using an oracle and tarot deck….

Two of cups indicates that an old friend may be getting some news so, (old friends unite) from a past lover you will be experiencing many surprises along the way and learn something about your lover that you’ve never expected. It is through their lens or experiences along the way. So do not be surprised if an old friend from the opposite sex decides to come along and fall in love with, congratulate or talk to you. It is someone from your past who is giving you good news in the first to second week.

The Empress indicates a beautiful, charming young woman, possibly a mother or giving birth to a child as the good news; aged 18-29. She brings fertility or birth to a new relationship or situation that you have never gone over or gone through before in the second week of the month. You will feel an instant attraction to her and you may want to get married. she is the childhood friend that embodies all the things you need to understand and gives all the answers to your questions.

The Lovers indicates a communion of souls; news of a wedding in the third week and or a choice you shall have to make between the childhood friend and your lover. If you are single, it represents that your soulmate is currently trying to contact you during this time of need. It is a transition of time racing against the universe. What the universe is trying to say is that your prayers and questions are being answered by synchronistic events. Notice them to increase your flow. Therefore, try to reduce to the simplicity of the little things in life by eliminating the big things in life to kind of sort out your scales to find balance.

Ten of wands indicates that you will be summing up your priorities for this person by the end of the month for this special childhood friend. So, when it all seems too much for you, your childhood friend will be the one to compensate for everything and you will have everything you need to know about on who to run to whether it be your lover or your friend from the past by the end of the week.

The End Of The Witch-hunt

“Woah! What’s up with her vibe?”

“Her name’s Meagan. They say she’s the sex but she’s actually really evil inside and out!”

My name is Meagan Holden Walker. Madly in love with Josh Hokum. I had a way of knowing shit. The bad shit. And everyone who dared piss me off or got in my way got “the mouth.”

I am a witch who uses different tarot decks. Now, they don’t tell me everything because right now, I just know.

Josh came up to me. My eyes softened and then got as cold as ice the moment he walked up to me while I was sitting down minding my own business with little glimpses of Josh.

“Why do you say bad stuff to people freak? And why are you so fucking quiet?” He asked.

Josh Hokum and I used to be best friends ever since pre-k.

We grew apart.

“I say the truth about people Hokum. Just never to their faces.”

He looked stunning in his Air Force outfit.

But I hated his boots. They reminded me of my father’s.

“Well why so quiet Meggie?” His voice softened. He looked confused.

I sighed.

“Because sometimes when we hurt people who we don’t like, we end up not thinking and hurting the ones we love. I hate talking because I have a habit of telling the truth and I’m sorry to say but sometimes the truth hurts.”

“When Meggie did you get so unpopular?”

I looked away.

He shook me.

“When?”

“Do you know that when you keep loving people, they isolate you and betray you? Sometimes you have to keep loving people and they’ll reciprocate that love back. Well life is not like that sometimes and people just don’t care. I was a loving person back then but now I’m cold just as cold as this room.”

I sniffled and Josh Hokum just held me.

Smile

He has angel wings

With a heart-wrenching smile

although he barely does smile,

I’ll think of my blonde haired angel

Smiling again.

Stars

They say follow the North Star.

Well sometimes when you look up to the Northern Star, that Star will never shine.

And when that star does, just remember that stars will sometimes fall down.

You can’t just claim a Star is yours because they fall down for you.

‘Cause sometimes in the night they never show up, but they’re never really gone for good.

So when I tell you never to rely on someone you’ve trusted, never trust them at all because that Star was never yours.

And the heart that was broken can never be fixed because the cogs and screws have been broken with the strings.

Goodbyes

He stood there loving me in his heart, caressing me with his soul.
I couldn’t say goodbye, I couldn’t.
But it was all I could do.
Love you, support you and never leave your side.

I will dream about you.

And as I wonder in my sleep, your face will always be there.

I couldn’t say goodbye. So instead I nuzzled in his arms closer and whispered sweet nothings in his ear.

4 of Wands - Tarot Card of The Day - March 5th, 2020

MENTAL ASPECT

Mind-games only no deceit; finally figuring out what is to be and what is not. Rivals everywhere. trying to figure out who is stronger and most competent. A power-strike. new enemies. Mere rivals.

PHYSICAL ASPECT

A time for rest. Bruises and weaknesses.

AESTHETIC ASPECT

Love and war. Romeo and Juliet. Seems to be bad decisions. Bad at love.

REFLECTIONS

THINK. Think about what you are doing. The answers are right in front of you. Listen to your heart and your soul.

5 of Pentacles - Tarot Card of The Day - March 4th, 2020

MENTAL ASPECT

A need to believe. A need to show off your fears as though they were a coat and that will fit your hostile environment. Show that you are brave and you will go far. You will see that you have nothing to fear.

PHYSICAL ASPECT

Broaden your muscles and take a brisk walk around wherever you are. Make sure you carry a cell phone toget ready for a 911 call before getting mugged.

AESTHETIC ASPECT

Evil times, plans forming after World War 3. A call from someone unwanted. Beware unwanted phone calls. Bad news ahead.

SPIRITUAL ASPECT

Anger; jealousy; a hostile environment. A war starting this Summer in everyone externally and internally. Bad luck. Bad relationships.

REFLECTIONS

Take time to realize that nothing is as bad as it seems. Time will tell. Before starting shit give yourself time to think about what you’re doing.

10 of Cups - Tarot Card of The Day - March 3rd, 2020

MENTAL ASPECT

Wanting to get even, best, better, good. A feeling of coming home and facing yourself and your fears like a mirror. An understanding. Compromise.

PHYSICAL ASPECT

Loving yourself. An unexpected visitor. A beautiful person. Time to shape up and or tone down. A good time to take a break and party.

AESTHETIC ASPECT

Partying; A plan. Finally knowing what needs to be done for yourself and not for others.

SPIRITUAL ASPECT

A face down on fears and a comforting spirit guide from the universe. Keeping it safe.

REFLECTIONS

If you’re going to do something, do it for yourself and for yourself’s sake only.

The Star - Tarot Card of The Day - March 2nd, 2020

MENTAL ASPECT

As desire turns into will power, the desperate need to become something or someone is very clear and your mind is free to wander and wonder. these thoughts are valuable for they are the truth. You need to tell the truth and resurface for the truth shall set you free.

PHYSICAL ASPECT

A good time to delve into what is bothering you. Your muscles need to relax. You need time on your own and you need to surface what is truly your definite bodily shape.

AESTHETIC ASPECT

Lust, happiness and humanity.

SPIRITUAL ASPECT

Good vibes and a great sensation of relief.

REFLECTIONS

When the truth comes you will have a greater understanding of what is in store for your heart and your mind. Try to en-capsule what is best and what is good for the soul.